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hellbentwidow · 4 years ago

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witcher verse sadie never went to any academies for magic-inclined folks. it’s universal for all my verses that sadie is home-schooled and that translates over to this verse too. sadie and her adoptive older sister Marjorie were taught to control their abilities by their adoptive mother. while their mother was a very powerful witch, she was not the best teacher though she tried. she never believed in bottling the chaos, which is why she… wasn’t all there in the head, especially towards the end. marjorie eventually died due to her own abilities overtaking her and crushing her down to the bone and their adoptive mother wandered into the swamps and never returned after that happened. sadie tried to search for her but to no avail.

after seeing what magic did to the two most important people in her life, sadie stopped trying to learn/forced herself to stop being curious. don’t get me wrong, she’d still cast minor spells here and there– something to help heal a wounded dog or an innocent merchant… something to make a piece of shit prick trip over thin air and bust his nose open on a table. but besides that, she stayed relatively off the radar. took over the farm her mother and sister lived in by the swamps, a good hour away from the nearest village. filled it with horses, chickens, and pigs.

she eventually met jake, a traveling merchant from the skellige isles. it’d been a long trip to velen and he was mugged and left for dead by bandits. sadie saved and healed him and let him stay with her until he was better but instead of staying two days, he ended up staying with her until his last breath, six years later. they fell in love and married and sadie was sure this was her destiny– that jake was her destiny. even without being able to carry a child and with her being a non-human, he didn’t care and loved her through and through.

she lived happy and carefree until witch hunters showed up at her doorstep. because witch hunters don’t care if it’s just a woman trying to live a good and peaceful life who has never truly harmed anyone– they just cared about tying her up to a stake and burning her alive. sadie was forced to use defensive/offensive magic she’s never had to use before because though her husband was a large man, he knew very little of how to protect himself. he tried, god did he try– and him trying ended with a sword in his chest and his throat slit after two days of them tormenting/abusing the couple. turns out it’s awfully easy to get a witch on the floor when you threaten to gut her husband like a pig. that sort of grief, pain and shock did to her what it’d do to any woman madly in love with someone: unhinge her and make her want to hurt the witch hunters as painfully as possible. she snapped their bones one by one, starting with their ankles and moving up to their knees, up to their ribcage, their arms and finally ending at their neck. burnt one of them alive– a fire which eventually burnt down the entire home. the last hunter left alive was left on the floor with his hands and feet severed. sadie was bleeding profusely from her nose, clothes barely clinging onto her charred body. but she asked him who hired him/where he found out about her. turns out the town a whole fucking hour away didn’t want a witch living that close to them so several villagers put their coin together to hire the hunters. funny thing is they most likely would have been able to capture and kill sadie if they hadn’t decided to get their rocks off and torture her and jake. if they hadn’t killed jake, they would have been able to get her because all she cared about was him being safe. if they had let him go, she would have tied her own damn self to the stake. that’s what happens when unprofessional and sadistic bastards become witch hunters.

the house as well as most of the animals got burnt down, as well as the hunter who had been left alive. sadie got what remained of jake’s body once the flames died down (and after she woke up since she got knocked the fuck out by her own magic and woke up with a blinding migraine as well as two blackened fingers on her right hand. yeah they fell off an hour later), buried him and the animals, released the ones that were left alive and then hopped onto bob, her very loyal and resilient steed that got a few burns to his backside, leaving him with a big ol’ bald spot.

she rode into the village that called for her head and wiped out nearly everyone. we’ll say the village had a population of about 70 people– she killed thirty-two of them that day, all in agonizing ways. one of them was a kid, six of them were people who had been against hiring the witch hunters. the village got burnt down to the ground, down to the very last ash, though people still remained alive after sadie rode out of there. they chased her, enraged and blinded with grief the same way she was, but bob has always been an extremely fast horse and got sadie to safety. sadie passed the fuck out for three and a half days after that.

when she woke up, a godling was hovering over her, pouring water on her face and giggling when she got up disoriented and terrified. turns out that godling is the only thing that stopped her from turning into the dinner of a huge fucking bear. she almost passed right back out after fighting the bear off but she got herself to her feet and back to bob. the consequences of her actions are massive– it seems like every single fucking witch hunter in velen starts trying to track her down after what she did. the remaining survivors of the village all put up notices for her, all of them able to describe her appearance in vivid detail. sadie is still so angry and unsatisfied, and for years she comes after the last survivors of the village. not the kids or the women though. but she becomes pure unfiltered chaos for almost an entire decade on that side of velen.

word spreads about her throughout the entire province though, but what helps the witch hunters stop finding her is the ghost stories about her. folk start describing her as an old hag with long white hair, or a beautiful red-head with in-your-face tits. there’s less and less hunters coming after her each year and eventually all the last remaining men of the village get wiped out by sadie. somewhere towards the end of her uhh Journey of Vengeance, she runs across a bounty hunter. he doesn’t give a fuck that she’s a witch– if anything, he tells her that might help her bring in the tougher bounties. he introduces her to the life of a bounty hunter, shows her the ropes. sadie, towards the end of the decade, exhausted and in so much physical/emotional pain, takes up the gig because she needs a… new start. she doesn’t particularly think she deserves it. she doesn’t see herself as a bad person the first two or three years, but the rest of them? she loathes herself & gets no happiness from her actions. she’s just doing it because she’s angry and wants to feed the chaos in her, even if the chaos keeps hurting her. she gets riddled with burn scars from the neck-down over the years from the flames cast by her own hands. loses those two fingers, loses all of her hair for a while there, and she suffers permanently from spontaneous nose-bleeds and blackouts.

anyway yeah she becomes a bounty hunter and people start seeing her a bounty hunter more than a witch since she seldom uses her magic now. she depends on her skills with her blades and bow and arrow above anything else. only uses her magic when she’s forced to/not around humans because she fears they’ll figure out who she actually is. there’s people who are still alive who remember who she is and want her dead, witch hunters still searching for her. she’s got a massive amount of coin racked up in the witch hunting world and a horrible reputation. if people recognize who she is they tend to turn a blind eye out of fear, and she’s been confronted multiple times. knocking them unconscious always works for her, since she doesn’t want to kill anymore people than she already has if they ain’t a bounty for her to track down.

forgot to add– though she avoids murdering needlessly now… if she runs across a witch hunter, that bastard is getting a knife through his neck IMMEDIATELY. she fucks with witchers, but witch hunters can go straight to fucking hell.

#GUH i had to repost this huge ass verse here so i can link it in my pinned post.#since it wont let me link my old one since i Moved Blogs.#anyway this is massive i am Sorry #( &. v: a witch or a bounty hunter? [ WITCHER III ]. )#( &. ain't no shrinking violet [ HEADCANONS ]. )#animal death ment /#child death ment /

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hei-ch0u · 4 years ago

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It’s long...(fair warning) ✰

Shingeki no Kyojin 139 (Theories)

Since everyone is throwing around their theories from the wild to the more likely, I thought I should contribute. After all, it will be the last time we can theorise this amazing manga full of all its twists and turns. Like most, I do agree with the popular fan theories simply because this manga is consistently unpredictable with each chapter. Let’s face it, some stories are easily picked apart these days and finding one that continuously has you thinking about what could occur is a winning tale. So first, I will start off by saying that I am so sad that Shingeki no Kyojin is coming to an end. But! I will never forget this amazing manga as I have grown so attached to the characters and the story as you can tell from the past nearly 9 years of running this blog. So, thank you yams for being such a genius! Regardless of the ending, it will go down in history as one of the best stories I personally have ever read and witnessed.

With typical fan theories, I won’t go into them too much as I feel the concept of the “time loop” has been written about to filth and I think it is very blatantly clear at this point that the concept of a time loop is very likely in one way or another given the overall concept within aot/snk in general - there is a obvious manipulation of past, present and future. I will hold my hands up and say that I definitely do agree with ‘some’ popular fan theories and will list a fair few below in brief detail - as I do think they are highly likely to be true in some way or at least implied within the last chapter. Now, with the usual leak dates coming up on the horizon, I wanted to put my input in before hand. Although, because of recent prosecution warnings for leaking the final chapter - I would advise others just to wait for the 9th of April on official release for concrete facts rather than speculations and leaks simply because we have seen with past few chapters that a lot of false spoilers get released and I think with the final chapter it would be wise to wait as I have previously stated on here that it will be the ‘revelation’ chapter that ties this manga together.

So! With the typical fan theories, we see the likes of:

Eren being the baby daddy to Historia’s baby

Eren sacrificing his reason for living - freedom. By being the greater evil to bring about the greater good

The baby itself could become the new beast titan or baby Eren/Ymir reborn

Eren isn’t dead, but on Paradis by way of transferring his subconscious into a crystallised version of himself

Eren and Ymir have struck a deal

And of course - the time loop concept

…The list is endless of popular fan theories. It would be silly not to agree with any of them given the story and where we are currently at, its very clear that Historia, Eren and Ymir will play a big part somehow in the final chapter (if not id be genuinely shocked) since majority of the past few chapters they have been absent in full form and I feel this needs to be explained. After all we still haven’t seen the full extent of the memories of past/future that Eren was aware of from his contact with Historia and his connection with Ymir in Paths. We saw 137 being predominantly Armin based, 138 being Mikasa based and I think it is only reasonable given his absence as the initial protagonist that Eren will be the revelation within 139. Ultimately culminating EMA / the trio as a whole. We began with them, so it only makes sense to end with them (albeit separately as individuals).

Moving on, as you can see I agree with said fan theories as I think any route could be possible! The thing with Shingeki no Kyojin is that it has many hidden ‘Easter eggs’ (how fitting given its easter), whether it be in the background of scenes, characters wording, placement of scenes/characters, flashbacks, paths and even in the opening and ending credits of the anime we see hidden meanings through imagery. It has all been laid out very well for our finding, its just if we have an intuitive enough imagination to pick it apart and figure things out. This leads on to my own theory/theories (it can go any way and I wont sugarcoat it - I could be reaching)

I generally have 2 theories that run about in my head with how the story itself could turn out or how it works. Both theories kind of tie together in one way or another featuring predominantly Eren and then Mikasa or overall ‘Ackerman’ blood/gene concept and its potential involvement in control of said time loop. I will do my best to include manga panels to give visual insight to the points.

To begin, I want to touch on Mikasa's “dream” in 138 - although devastating, I think it is being taken as the opposite of what it was and personally I see many looking at it through rose tinted glasses. This wasn’t an alternative universe (in my opinion), this was Mikasa’s Ideal life - her dream. When it comes to Eren as a connection to Mikasa, he is her reason for being, even in death she chooses not to part with him for her own good and creates a dreamlike reality for herself to make herself go through with the deed. She as a character has dominantly surrounded her existence on Eren, he is categorised many times within the manga as ‘home’ - like other fan theories have stated, it has been mentioned many times Mikasa referencing the word ‘home’ and also how she wants to ‘be close to him’ because it gives her comfort and strength. The Ackermans as a whole have attachments to people and this is where they ultimately gain strength from. Without any of the Ackermans ‘attachments’ being in danger or being killed, their powers wouldn’t be awakened and without them I feel their strength almost weakens until they find a new reason for living to keep moving forward. I’ll touch more on the ‘Ackerman’ theory later as its one of the open loopholes still currently alive within the manga.

Mikasa has always been a character that confuses me, particularly with the way she acts and things she says or thinks. She has said many things that don’t make sense unless she has a certain belief system or knows of things from past lives.

Examples:

As you can see and I will produce more evidence of such comments further in. She implies that she either believes in reincarnation or she is aware of different periods within the said time loop. She speaks of starting over, being dead and returning and implies in different ways that she is scared of the same thing happening again. The last panel - what plan is she on about here? Her own plan. In my opinion it is - "Don't let Eren die". As we have seen, that may be what has to happen. It's fate. She interferes with this and never lets him go.

Mikasa does have an unhealthy bond with Eren, I do think he loves her ( I’m not dismissing that ) but do I think its the type of intense love she feels? no. Some things she has came out with has even shocked other characters and countless times her comrades have tried to ‘break the barrier’ to get her to realise her way of thinking when it comes to Eren is unhealthy. Hence why I think we seen Jean in this particular scene below so frustrated

not because he himself has feelings for her, but because she’s not letting them get through to her that she is refusing to believe Eren could ultimately be a changed person (which he definitely is, I’ll not go into my rant of why he isn’t ‘evil or a ‘monster’ because i’ve done so already) but overall, Mikasa constantly makes excuses for Eren and doesn’t recognise it, her life revolves around being close to Eren and she gets very emotionally troubled at the idea of not being with him or him ultimately taking a path that doesn’t involve her. We even seen Annie question her and this wasn't many chapters ago and she replies with the same mindset of bringing back "the old Eren". He is not the person he once was particularly as a child. Something that is implied at beginning of manga, it opens with them as children and somehow links with 138.

As stated by Armin below we see him even explaining to Mikasa that Eren’s never close, he always takes his own route and that ultimately both Armin and Mikasa aren’t his reason for living. Let’s face it - Freedom is Eren’s reason for being, his only desire. Armin has also expressed disbelief and almost frustration at her way of thinking when it comes to him (below examples) I think in a way the famed ‘table scene’ was Eren trying to break the bond, but he’s not doing that for no reason, its implied he does it to protect them, but it could also be because of what he has seen in memories past and future - he has perhaps became aware of Mikasa’s involvement within paths and the loop. He has to try to alter her way of thinking to protect her, but maybe also himself.

Armin + Other comrades reactions to Mikasa’s mindset

Another visual point to make regarding Mikasa’s ties with previous loops and Armin, was her comment made about him at a very early stage in the manga just after Eren had been eaten by a titan after saving Armin - leaving his fate at this point unknown.

this is implying that Mikasa has some knowledge of previous times Armin has helped them with his ‘ability’ which if we are referencing him as a character is his methodical intelligence. But, even here he is confused by the comment, simply because at this point there has been no signs of Armin’s usage of this ability - mainly fear and lack of confidence with that in comparison of his peers. We don’t necessarily see this until perhaps even a chapter later and as far as we are aware, Mikasa doesn't follow through with “i’ll tell you about it later”.

I don’t know about anyone else, but it seems odd she has such an attachment to Eren like this that is so intense. It’s not normal to be as intense as she is about someone unless she is used to losing that person over and over. Even as children Mikasa acted possessive over the ‘concept’ of Eren dying - it wasn’t allowed to happen. She doesn’t have this intense reaction with Armin or other comrades. She fixates on the idea of Eren being her saviour, the one to give her a ‘home’ and a ‘purpose’. Mikasa consistently opposes his death and his death alone, I can only see this from a standpoint that deep within her own memory she has experienced his death countless times before. She even uses force a couple of times to increase this intensity. Here are some examples of this even in childhood -

There are many more examples of this throughout the manga and her refusal to accept that what she doesn’t want, may just happen. Now this might just be my over active imagination or my own ability of media studies kicking in. But, previously I had been under the impression in the presence of a time loop that Eren was in charge of it and controlling it, that somehow it would constantly reoccur when he himself died and he would have to come up with a way to either prevent his death or ultimately stop the timeline of the titans. Whether that be under making a deal with Ymir herself or by essentially “breaking the wheel” and turning others against him to show Eldians as triumphant heroes.

However, the more i’ve thought about it and given the revelations of 138 - i would be more inclined to say it is Mikasa Ackerman herself due to either her specifically or her Ackerman gene. There is something about the bloodline that is missing and we have not had the fabled Ackertalk or much explanation of how they work (something I’d like to see covered in 139 - although i feel it will be an Eren chapter, I also think it will include the visions Eren has seen to give an explanation of why the previous 138 chapters played out the way they did)

I think there is a possibility Eren had to break the wheel on the loop, Mikasa would go back each time and always Eren would die, something we’ve established she tries to prevent and never accepts. The only escape was her accepting his death therefore he did everything he could to push her away, break the bond and push her to kill him to end the cycle (since he’s seen the future). As I have a hunch previously in other loops he was not killed by her hand - it had to be her to break the cycle or vice versa (but we will get to this).

there is hints of this in the “Lost Girls” OVA. Yes, I am aware it’s said that OVAS are not necessarily canon per say, but I don’t think it would have so many open links if Isayama himself didn't want it to. This particular one gives many hints to Mikasa’s involvement in the loop and alternative universe theories. The anime adaptations are on point with showing us details we only recognise after more plot points are revealed. It may explain the headaches, every time Eren dies, she reverses the loop or changes realities. This ailment could be a product of her memory issues. In the OVA we see Mikasa in real time thinking about Eren and his constant state of taking his own path.

After this moment, the said “Scene” she speaks of is revealed to us. Another example of Mikasa’s dreamlike state or perhaps another timeline? We are taken back to the time where she had given up, had ran out of gas, a titan was approaching and she was ‘lost’ - her reason for being was gone and she knew her death was coming, but also in the manga during this scene she is “worried” she’ll have to start again (above in examples). This again implies she knows something we don’t. We then hear Mikasa’s voice speaking to Mikasa herself, telling her that if she simply didn’t like this reality she could choose the place she wanted, but as we have seen before - she can’t stop his death.

The peculiar scene in this OVA that got me intrigued by this theory is the masked figure and young mikasa scene. Mikasa is rushing to meet with Eren and Armin to escape the walls in a hot air balloon, but she has to be there by a certain time or the plan fails. As she is running she is stopped by a mysterious masked figure who asks her to join in on his hypnotism trick to spectators. Comments he makes involve him telling her that her ‘friend’ will ultimately leave her and that she couldn’t accept his death and created this universe. Also, that he is no one, but someone at the same time. I think this holds great significance since the strange thing about this is that his voice mirages into a distant adult Mikasa.

implying that she has to ‘kill’ a part of herself or she has to die to prevent and hault the loop. She has to return from her idealistic dreams of keeping him alive as it will only fail otherwise. Upon hearing of Eren’s yet again untimely death within this universe, she begins to have memory flashes of multiple scenes appearing within her eyes with a typical media ‘rewind’ sound as she wakes up back in the street with no gas and a titan approaching but... she says something I find interesting and links to what Eren says at the beginning of the manga

“the feeling I’ve had a really long dream”

We witness Mikasa have these “headaches” multiple times within the manga and in the anime they are heavily focused on whenever it happens, which we can only recognise that this is an important part of the story itself. Eren too has random headaches, just not as much as Mikasa, he mainly experiences them when he accesses new memories. However, what if Mikasa too is affected by memories she cannot tap into or it is paths/ackerman gene warning her she is repeating past mistakes?

Notice how there is a lot of emphasis on the word ‘again’ when it comes to her headaches or the thought of losing Eren. It is constantly repeated. I think it is highly likely she only remembers some parts from previous loops, but the one that sticks is simply - she has to save Eren each time, but fails. Everything begins again after his or her’s demise. Perhaps each time Eren is the one who dies first, creating a somewhat butterfly effect. That maybe Mikasa has died once like she implies in previous example. However, the one to die first (in this case primarily Eren) loses all memories of the past loops - again this is implied as Eren does tell Mikasa he cannot remember his dream. I think deep within his mind Mikasa does remember, but given the fact she has potentially reversed the outcome many times...her memory is simply warped - that or she died in the previous loop and lost those components.

Will she not remember due to her memories being altered in her death?

Either way something needs to change. Eren Kruger says this in Eren’s attack titan memories. They are doing something wrong.

I believe Eren in 138 within Mikasa’s dream, was trying to tell her to move on, not necessarily forget him, but at least accept his passing - to stop the loop reoccurring, he influenced part of her reality...maybe with the help of Ymir. In a way it could be implied Eren almost regrets wrapping the scarf around her (this is heavily emphasised as a symbol of their relationship), for me the scarf seems like a softer symbolism for a chain - a binding if you will. By wrapping it round Mikasa he binds her to him. He has always insisted she should throw it away, even in 138 within her own conjured reality he says the same. She needs to kill this part of herself or “the same history” will be repeated. I do have a HUGE feeling in my heart, head and gut that Mikasa may need to end up dead first as I do have another HUGE feeling that Eren is not dead (maybe its wishful thinking, but his death doesn’t make sense right now, so Yams I trust in you for explanation). His death seemed too convenient.

Now, before I go onto “Ackerman” gene factors, I’ll briefly bring in another peculiarity I have always had about a particular scene in the beginning of the manga. After it is decided Eren will carry the boulder to plug the wall, Eren (the attack titan) seemingly loses control and succumbs to pure rage, in turn he attacks Mikasa. Something he hasn’t done against humans unless its free will.

However, a part of me has always felt that this could be the attack titan itself (in past inhabitants and memories) recognising her as a threat and trying to rid her of the world first to avoid the loop of Eren dying first to Mikasa controlling the loop to return to try to save Eren - nothing changes. This is what I meant by “breaking the wheel”, we have saw it in other tales, things can’t change unless you choose a different path than the same one with the same brutal cycle. As Kruger says, to save Mikasa and Armin, Eren has to change things - this could be to separate not only Armin, but Mikasa from him, that maybe in previous loops...they follow him. In this instance, he has definitely separated Armin and by way of second hand - Mikasa too. Hence why Ymir says goodbye to Eren in 138, he is free. Another notable concept is that aot/snk is made up of trios, we see it in:

Eren / Mikasa / Armin

Reiner / Bertholdt / Annie

Connie / Jean / Sasha

Hanji / Erwin / Levi

Levi / Farlan / Isabel

Kenny / Levi / Mikasa

It would partially make sense for the trio to be the reasoning for the ending. Almost illuminati based - very yams style.

Why not Mikasa?

Lets talk Ackerman and a slightly different theory, but with relation!

(Obviously, I cannot provide much evidence to support any Ackerman based theories other than what has already been provided, which isn’t a lot to be fair. Dammit Yams)

I want to briefly start off on the Ackerman front with a brief comparison of our two currently known Ackermans: Levi and Mikasa. The main categorising difference between these two is that Levi moves on regardless of what happens to him or his comrades or his ‘attachments’. He also does not appear to experience these headaches, some say he does, but I can’t find evidence. Isayama shows these headaches with a throbbing sign around Mikasa’s head - so unless the Ackertalk happens and Levi confirms it, its still absent in theory. Levi treats Ackerman-ism as moving on, making choices with no regrets (as his backstory indicates) and even in current states he has said he doesn’t regret his decisions. It is why he is able to move forward and keep surviving. Its simple...his mindset is stronger than Mikasa's, she is the weaker link. This could be due to age difference and overall past experience, Levi has more life experience as an Ackerman to have mastered his emotion and reactions to outcomes - he accepts the bad.

Mikasa is weaker in this regard, perhaps if you link it back to the theory of her control of the loop...due to this weakness she creates the loop since she can’t accept his death and tries to return to make amends. I think in reality, Eren knows due to the attack titan ability - he will die. Hence why he appeared so shocked upon making contact with Historia to then very depressed and detached before vanishing in Marley. He became aware of the outcome and I don’t know about anyone else, but I’d be depressed too after finding out my life was made to end especially since all he wanted as a character was Freedom. Eren x Freedom will be the only canon ship at this rate.

However, I do think the only way she can create said loop is through her Ackerman gene. Ackermans are products of ‘titan science’, they were genetically engineered (if you want to put it that way) to have titan like abilities while still maintaining their human form and sense of self being. Created to protect the Fritz family (royal blood), to eventually being ostracised for their dismissal of the plan to wipe Eldian’s memories. Therefore banished, but allowed to live, I can only see there being one reason why - they would be still useful at some point and their deaths/extinction would be wasteful.

From what we know and can tell from mere viewing, the Ackermans are very skilled and powerful beings that have ‘hosts’ or attachments (I like this name better) to channel their goals, strength and energy into. They were made to protect, fight and survive. The only surviving Ackermans are Levi and Mikasa.

They cannot be affected by the founding titan and their memories cannot be altered. But, this brings about another question. Why were they created to protect the founding titan, yet could not be controlled by it? The theory with this bloodline is that they can do more than what we see, that they themselves don’t know it yet. One in particular can alter realities - that being Mikasa (as we don’t have mass amounts of information on Levi’s experiences other than his surge of power awakenings demonstrated throughout the manga to confirm his part) due to fact Levi really only knew he was an Ackerman within his 30′s after the previous Ackerman - Kenny, dies and informs him of this. Mikasa has always been aware.

Mikasa’s ‘Power’ ultimately has something to do with the Attack Titan and the Founding titan - that being Eren and Ymir combined. In past loops, I believe each time she has seen Eren die she has said “see you later, Eren”... hence the ending of 138 and the beginning of the manga. Isayama did say the beginning would relate to the ending. Each time this happens they are transcended to the point Eren wakes up at the tree within the walls to begin once more, its the only clear explanation for why Eren comments of her hair length. The attack titan itself is the component of Ymir that captivates her freedom, it continues to move forward for 2000 years each successor until one has the power (the desire for freedom like her) to release her from enslavement to the power of the titans. In this instance Eren too has been a slave to the power, lets for arguments sake blame Grisha for passing it on to him.

Again, with the Ackermans there is something I’ve always noticed between Levi and Mikasa - they have never touched skin to skin. It has always been over their clothing. I wonder if their Ackerman powers may stem similar to how Eren draws memories from contact with the royal family, i.e. Historia. They need to touch in order to access Paths and manifest it into their control. Eren is aware of this due to his connection to Ymir - there is heavy implied material to denote the idea of Ragnarok and reincarnation. Eren is the reincarnate of Ymir and previously I don’t think they were aware of this.

For anyone not familiar with the term “Ragnorok” - its definition has multiple meanings in Norse mythology. Particularly - development, origin, cause, relation and fate. It is a series of events that often lead to a great battle, the deaths of multiple people of importance to the ultimate end revelation of the world being remade and fertile (the opposite of Zeke’s plan) with the remaining ‘gods’ returning and ‘two’ human survivors repopulating the world. I personally believe this to be either two of these: Levi and Mikasa or Eren and Historia by the way of Ymir as the ultimate god, but just in different ways. The Ragnorok element is particularly of importance within Germanic studies, this would connect with Shingeki no Kyojin since it is implied its set in early germany/europe and given characters name origins - it makes sense.

The two human survivors are that of Lif and Lifbrasir (shown below) who survive by ‘hiding’ in the woods while the great battle commences.

They repopulate the world starting with a daughter. In germanic regions, the concept of mankind originated from trees is an ancient notion “the tree of life” essentially. Trees have a massive importance and connection in Shingeki no Kyojin, we see Eren wake up at one in the beginning, the main Path coordinate resembles a tree, Ymir originated from trees and being within the woods would indicate “trees”. This would make me more inclined to believe the Eren and Historia theory to be likely, simply because Historia is all the way back in Paradis and potentially Eren himself by transferring subconscious. To me it seems very likely the leaked final panel released by Yams himself is Eren holding a child rather than anyone else as whoever this figure is tells the child they are free and this could only relate to both Ymir and Eren, the ones who sought freedom. This could mean in this instance Levi and Mikasa are the ‘gods’, the ones with the power to restore and mend, again through the concept of the Ackerman Gene being more than what meets the eye. Ymir will be reborn ultimately and no longer enslaved as will Eren.

Ragnarok and Shingeki no Kyojin combined have connotations of ‘fate’ being a big part of their depths. It is fated. Everything is. Just like Eren’s death and potentially ability to be reborn into another timeline. Just like Eren’s fate to obtain the founding titan and attack titan, both very powerful titans in the manipulation of time and events. Eren makes a statement around chapter 123 in Paths when talking with Zeke that if someone tried to take his freedom, no matter who, he would remove theirs. That he has been like that since birth because he was “born into this world”.

Zeke: “Since birth?”

this further implies fate. He was born free, he expresses detest for people who aren’t free and bound by something, 2000 years, Ymir etc. This only ties together if Eren himself in past lives was someone with the same views and personality traits, like Mikasa, except hers are the opposite. Paths has always been there and everything that has happened in the past is imbedded within its clutches through Ymir. These two titans needed to be combined, Grisha was informed by Eren himself through Kruger and future versions of himself that he had to obtain the founder or nothing could be changed. Grisha is even seen asking Eren to show him everything that happens, whether carla dies etc. He did not have full control, this was made for Eren’s inhabitant period and he did not have access to all memories due to only being able to access the ones the future successor sends back in time. Like the mirror scene for example, Eren is speaking to someone else, not himself. Grisha was only instructed to go within the walls and have a family. Eren was instructed to save everyone. Remember that the common rule with time is that you cannot change the past or it significantly alters the future.

I believe all the memories (the ones we are seeing even now) are actually in paths, the story has always had an indication it is being ‘narrated’ by someone - in most instances this is Armin. This has implied he will survive into the future, but that others may not. How this will happen...I can only theorise that Ymir will factor into who lives or dies. She will need to leave paths however, the only way the titan curse will end is if she leaves and no one is there to build titans. She will be either reborn to capture her freedom or reborn through Eren for them both to obtain the same dream. There has been multiple theories that some other titan other than the attack titan could be the key or another character, like that of the Ackermans or armin for example as I do think the trio concept is likely. But, remember the manga is called “Shingeki no Kyojin” meaning “the attack titan” - its always been the key and Eren is that key...again, key? Eren. scarf? Mikasa. Equals symbolism.

At the end of the day, the characters who I feel personally will tie together the ending are Eren, Ymir, Historia and Levi, Mikasa, Armin - both trios on different sides of the coin. Just remember, this isn’t the type of story where the characters get what they desire and that they could die without obtaining these desires. Erwin died before learning the truth of the outside world. Hanji died. Sasha died, Niccolo lost her. Floch did not live to see Eldian rule. Levi may have killed Zeke, but what for? He killed a different version of him, not the one who murdered innocents in Shinganshina. Levi lost every attachment of his. Mikasa lost Eren. I’d be angry and sad for him, but Eren also could lose his freedom by striking a deal with Ymir for her own freedom. But! he could free the world and his friends through both Mikasa and Armin, the chain will break, the titan curse will end and he will cease to exist or be lost in Paths dormant, unlike Ymir for 2000 years. This would be a good culmination of Eren’s character, extremely heart breaking, but fitting. A character who only sought freedom for humanity. He is humanity’s hope after all. Remember, Kaji Yuki (Eren’s Japanese voice actor) expressed extreme sadness at learning Eren’s fate from Isayama. It has always been a manga that indicates a bittersweet ending, so this could also be highly likely. (Eren is my favourite character...so this guts my heart from my chest)

To conclude, these are merely my own speculation of the final events within 139 and although sad of its ending, my excitement for this final instalment knows no bounds. I can only wish for the best and I know Isayama will deliver.

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thatblondeperson · 3 years ago

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Hi so I'm gonna make a quick post just to go over some things in the wake of likely oncoming news.

First and foremost, I will be happy with any outcome we get for Tim unless it turns out to be queerbaiting because fuck that DC. Either go 100% for bi or gay or don't play at people's heartstrings. Commit or be burned. I myself like to headcanon Tim as bi. I think he's always been very clearly attracted to women, but that doesn't mean he can't also be attracted to men. I've shipped TimKon before and still do, just less so than my main, which brings me to the next obvious thing of note.

Yes, obviously I'm very sad that Tim and Steph broke up. More because it was mentioned in passing which I think does a disservice to their entire relationship as a whole. Where is the respect for their tenure together? I do hope we get some explanation since there was nothing going on in current continuity that predicted this and I'd rather not just have it written off as "yeah they're over, move on." I want to dig in a bit, because Tim's attitude seems like something bad happened which would have to be huge considering that they've been fine up until this point. I do not feel confident that my curiosity will be humored.

Regarding Steph, I hope she doesn't get written out. i hope she gets respect, her own stories, her own life. I want her to not just be cast aside as a nothing in Tim's life, or as cheap training wheels for this new chapter. I don't want mlm representation at the expense of misogyny because media does that a lot. Shippers on this site do this a lot. Someone can't be queer unless you effectively bury their prior relationships in a trauma filled heap of garbage. It's frustrating and I don't want her sucked into that. I believe in my heart that she would be supportive, so if Tim is gonna come out, LET ME SEE SOME DAMN SUPPORT FROM STEPH. This could change her stories too though, which I'm happy for as well. they could let her be canonly bi (not mentioning Future's End as that's BARELY Steph...) and give her some new adventures that I will be thrilled to read. But I don't want her turned into the devil of Tim's life journey. Don't make her his oppressor, don't make her the thing that held him back from happiness. She can be something that was happy for him as well, and now he has something else that makes him happy. It can be both.

My theory right now is that Tim is getting a ton of memories flooding back into his head and he's remembering old friends which is bringing up old suppressed feelings that he wasn't aware of. Bernard is in his memories and I think that's a really interesting way for them to take his. It's not making a new character or starting things out of the blue, it's very much saying HEY! We heard you. This is something people have seen in Tim for a while so maybe it was always there but he never knew it himself. Very cool move, I hope they handle it well.

My next concern is...my fic. Regardless of the outcome, gay or bi, I will post it. If he's bi, I'm not gonna have any issues, but if he's gay, I will pin a disclaimer at the top of my blog and on the fic itself. I just want to post it. I'm a slow writer, but I've been working on this piece since 2019, and I've been wanting to write it since I first got into Tim and Steph. Is it perfect? No. It's very self indulgent and angsty, but I'm proud of it, and I want to post it. With either outcome I'm afraid I'll get backlash, and I will just probably have to link them to a disclaimer. If Tim is confirmed gay, I will be heartbroken at not feeling comfortable discussing my fic with anyone. I won't be able to talk about why I've loved TimSteph for years. I won't be able to post headcanons. I won't be able to participate. I will still love them both separately, but I'll be losing the drive for my art. Those two have inspired me for years and I have list of wips and ideas that will unfortunately never be able to be published. It breaks my heart to have to abandon all of that, but it's my own fault for not writing fast enough or not feeling confident in my drawing abilities. I have been a bit selfish today in hoping that Tim is bi, and I do wholeheartedly apologize for that, but my creativity is going to halt immediately and I'll never get to do what I planned to do because I believe it would be disrespectful to continue to put out TimSteph media if Tim were gay.

More than anything, I am worried about losing friends. I won't get to have deepdives into their characters anymore with a couple people, and those deepdives have kept me going many days during quarantine. I wont get to bounce fic ideas or art ideas off of people anymore, and I'm worried that over time without TimSteph being a bit of glue, I'll lose those people. This is kind of my one big ship. I don't ship a lot of things and while it's not necessary to ship things to be happy, I like having at least one solid ship to fall back on. I don't have a backup, most of my ships are from discontinued shows and I have no desire to write or draw for them a lot of the time. I gotta shift this energy somewhere, but where? And I just do not want this lack of energy period that might come in the wake of Tim being confirmed gay, to lose me connections with the people I've gotten to know over the past couple years BECAUSE of TimSteph. I'm mourning a future that might not even come, but I can't help it. I'm afraid that I'll get left behind.

This is all very dramatic and personal, the comic today was wonderful and I thoroughly enjoyed it. I'm being selfish for the sake of my art and my personal relationships which overall doesn't matter in lieu of potential representation!!!!!!! Like actual tangible representation YES. There's ways that I want this to go and ways that I don't, but for the record I want to make sure it's clear: If Tim is canonically confirmed as LGBT+, I will be celebrating with everyone else. I am not here to suppress representation for the sake of a fictional ship that I enjoy. Everyone should get a chance to see themselves in a story, and Tim is a big character to make that leap with. This will hopefully be a diversity win that will make a huge impact in all big name comics going forward, not just DC comics.

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zamilemzizi · 3 years ago

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A trip down lockdown memory lane!

A trip down memory lane

As my business steadily builds itself back up, with a new face and some Covid-influenced changes, I look back at what it was like for a few months last year as just the “Mom.” The South African lockdown, one of the strictest in the world at that time, forced most of us Marketing and PR SME owners to close our doors and focus on creating a safe and “new normal” environment for ourselves and our families.

My parents both contracted the Corona Virus and so, it was left up to me to care for ALL five grandchildren for a few months. Including my own children, I had two five-year-olds’ (one boy; Wandi and one girl; Koli), one nine-year-old girl (Thotse), a twelve-year-old girl (Lungi) and the legend himself, my two-year-old son (Bugsy) whom you will have read a lot about on my personal Facebook page. As if that was not enough, we rescued an eight-week-old puppy (Luna) too!

Being a person known for preferring the company of all the Mzizi grandchildren, I was up for the challenge of this time spent being reacquainted with the daily struggle of just-being-the-mom-with-no-work without the pressure of having to go to work.

I acknowledge that my experience of this time is grossly different to that of a majority of my fellow countrymen/women, who struggled to make ends meet. Zam’s Hive started a fund, which generously received funds donated by almost ALL of my clients, close friends and colleagues from my place of work. We used these funds to assist families who wrote in via WhatsApp and SMS stating what their urgent needs were and paired them with the correct donor. I was astounded at how the people I knew were able to look beyond their own experience of the Lockdown, and were able to give the little (or lot) that they had to keep hope alive.

However, being the stay-at-home mom yielded quite a few hilarious experiences, which naturally, I shared on social media as they happened. Here are some of these posts. I hope they make you chuckle a bit at my expense. I hope they remind you that no matter how bleak the situation, our inner circle, our families, our children, the people that matter most to us are the ones we should keep our focus on.

How the wars began…

Wandi’s benevolent fart

Raising boys is a BREEZE!

My Wandi has reached that age where every hug and cuddle is a conscious decision on his part to be with me. It says, ' I choose to be near YOU. I choose you, mommy'

So imagine my joy as I was working in my office and my big boy chose that moment to sit on my lap...

He sat facing me, flashed his special smile and said' 'Mommy, let me show you how much I love you'

He put his hands on my shoulders and closed his beautiful brown eyes. I could see him mentally reaching deep within himself in order to share what he had to say. Then...

I felt it. A persistent drill-like hammering on my sturdy thigh where his bony bum was perched.

The stench was instant and the fog it created in my mind was confusion personified. I could not immediately compute that my baby came all this way just to fart on me. As realization dawned on me, my little angel held onto me just a little bit tighter to keep me in place as the hammer-drill was still operating. My thin leggings were no barrier from the barrage of bodily functions battering my poor skin.

During this assault, Wandi did not change his facial expression at all. He looked like a little Buddha bestowing a blessing upon a lesser mortal.

When he was done, he nimbly sprang off my leg and bestowed a beguiling cherubic smile upon me. Slowly reversing from the room with his cheesy smile and eyes closed, he blessed me with his benevolent ' enjoy the smell mommy' and quietly closed the door.

Bugsy drinks shit water

I'm on my knees begging for this changeling to be taken. Return Bugsy pre-terrible twos to me please!

I went into the toilet for a teensy while. I'd been holding it in for some time chasing my kids around. To my knowledge, fake Bugsy was safely chilling on my bed.

As my empty bladder and I float out the bathroom, changeling proudly displays a cup of water he is drinking...now this is a problem because all taps and cups are beyond his reach. This cup looks like the dirty one I ignored on the floor a teensy while back- are you judging me Karen?!

I frantically urge fake son to show me if he got water from the other toilet. He proudly replies, ' I no drink here Wandi peepee here' This is good. It's great actually. Wandi has diarrhea and drinking from his toilet could kill someone. Never mind Corona.

So I drag the smirking not-really-my-son into the kitchen to wash this mysterious cup. At this stage I'm fuming at the lord thinking 'turn this crap into wine NOW'

As I wash the still alcohol free cup, I turn to find swopped-at-birth guy smacking his lips and drinking from the bucket mqobothi style.

MY HEART SKIPS A BEAT!

I used water and Jik to clean dog poop just now. I spilled the water but clearly not all of it. What's worse here? Jik poisoning or dog poop poisoning?

The terror child is ok. I gave him milk and surrendered the rest to his creator.

I'm ok. I have a new twitch in my eye and I think I might have peed my pants a little. But otherwise baaah I'm good.

No really.

Just fine.

Look- fake son took the tin of milk and smeared the stuff on himself.

I'm just FINE!

Then the tensions were rising

The stand off

In a bid to demonstrate his defiance of my authority, my two year old has taken the long life milk and some shopping bags to an undesirable corner of the house. He has boldly announced that, 'I puttinnnin me in noty cona' This is his strategy to deprive my authority of putting him in a corner myself. The standoff continues...

Sulking in the shower

I swear I don't make this stuff up...

Wandi just played with matches and his cousins came to tell on him. Naturally I gave him 'the look' times 10. He says to me,

'I know you're cross with me and wont talk to me.'

He stalks off to the shower and sits there while singing his new and spontaneously composed struggle song. The words weren't too clear but this is what I heard:

Take me away in peace, take me away in peace.

Please note he has taken to eating some of his meals in this shower.

Can someone please send me a bottle of gin??! Its for the kids.

The breaking point

Exacting revenge in small ways

My kids broke my hair clippers machine while I was cutting them. So now I'm leaving them with unfinished cuts because one needs to take revenge wherever the opportunity may present itself-even if it's your own kids. They think they know me. Mxim!

Mom flu strike

I've been in bed with flu for a week now. During this my kids haven't given me an inch of space and rest.

I'm still a horse, jungle gym, chef, personal snot cleaner and unwilling audience to dance shows and song decompositions.

Tonight was just the worst! I went to the chemist for more meds and so needed a nap from the trip. Only to realize that I'd over slept and it was supper time.

After a mad dash to cook, serve and feed the royal highnesses, I'd had enough.

Where am I now? What am I doing now? These are all relevant questions I'm happy to answer for you.

I'm in my bedroom. For the first time since I became a mother, I have done the only sensible thing a tired parent can do...

I'VE LOCKED MY BEDROOM DOOR BIYAAACHES!

The situation update is as follows:

Hostile!

1. Two year old has attempted breaking door down

I DON'T CARE!

2. Five year old has resorted to creepy body plastering against door and quietly chanting 'mooommyyyy can we have ice cream while you die?'

I DON'T CARE

3. In a rare show of solidarity the boys are now howling like wolves outside the door, throwing in the odd 'moooommmy where are youuuu'

I D O N T C A R E!

4. Nine year old niece has increased the volume and frequency of her coughing

IIIIIIIII DOOOOOOOONT CAAAAAAARE!

I'm at peace in my warm bed. Let the siege continue I have all that I need in here. A bathroom, all the toilet paper in the house, the only phone with airtime and did I mention -I'm the only person tall enough to cook. Muhahuahua!

They will know me!

The resolution?

Wandi prays for peace

So as usual the kids were acting up and driving me crazy before bedtime. This time however, the transgressions were extreme.

Someone didn't pee INSIDE the toilet but decided to mark his territory next to it instead.

Another decided to generously leave food on a dinner plate and put it in the kitchen sink for Santa maybe.

Another was dejectedly roaming the passage without pajama bottoms like a homeless person. Left to wander the night in shame and bottomlessness.

This was the last straw and I blew my top off.

EVERYONE TO BED WITHOUT A STORY NOW!

Even the little one understood that Armageddon was nigh, and scurried into bed as fast as his fat stubby legs could carry him (only half way up the bed usually).

In an unusually respectful and hesitant tone, Wandi bravely reminded me that I forgot to pray. So fine! I asked God to please help me make my children good etc.

Wandi again bravely offered to pray too and this is where he played his master plan into action (he never wants to pray):

Wandi: Dear God, please make all my dreams come true. The end.

Yes. He said the end and not AMEN. I felt a reluctant smile coming on but I was wise to the enemy.

The next morning the kids all came to greet me in that way guilty kids do hoping for a cease-fire.

'Good morning rakhali' etc.

Then the master played his Ace move.

Wandi: In the name of Jesus, good morning everyone!

How could I remain grumpy after my son evoked the name of Jesus?!

He's goooooood. One point to Wandi. None to me.

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illusionlockarchive · 5 years ago

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pazam: a mess, truly a mess

so i usually dont do these kind of posts, i guess you could say its a call out of some sort? but i never liked that word, i prefer rather to just compile sources on WHY people would believe that a certain person is not truly as nice and understanding as they seem. consider this more of a psa post, detailing on whats going on with pazam on the sfm community, why so many people are against them.

So, a while back, tumblr user jymble made a post on the main tag stating that pazam was transphobic. they linked back to this post, which contains screenshots of pazam in a group chat stating that they do not feel comfortable with the idea of trans people. now, this did happen 9 months ago, true. however, for the record, pazam is already an adult, 24 years old, so they should have some tact. and as further and more recent events will show, they actually havent changed that much at all, at least not as they claim.

the screenshots should be in the post, but here is a transcript

[Screenshot one]

Pazam:

What????? Why?????

I literally HAVE NOT been doing ANYTHING malicious to them

And if it did I apologized

Yes I do have discomfort about them but I keep it to myself

Why are you doing this????

[End screenshot one]

‘Them’ here refers to trans people in general. Notice the defensive and victimizing stance they almost immediately take upon being confronted about their feelings on trans people.

[Screenshot two]

elliott:

of COURSE you dont

sammaku:

Like specifically

Elliott hush

Pazam:

This whole concept of transness and changing your gender physically

I hate to say it again but it weirds me out and it makes me question my own gender which flings me into anxiety, depression, and obsession

sammaku:

Its fine to not understand but are you willing to learn about it

Pazam:

I don’t want to talk about this anymore

sammaku:

That depression anxiety and obsession just comes with gender issues

(the rest of the text is cut off)

[End Screenshot two]

notice once summaku asks them if they would at least be willing to learn about it, pazam immediately deflects it by saying they dont want to talk about it anymore.

[Screenshot three]

Pazam:

Seriously??? That’s all it takes????

Wow I’m a moron

I’m sorry for all the trouble I’ve caused to you

@.aziraphale @.elliott @.sammaku

I just don’t get this stuff period

And I’ve gotten into trouble with this stuff before

I’ll probably never understand it for the rest of my life but I’ll try to be more tactful around y’all

Especially since you’re all young

And I’m like an adult

[End screenshot three]

While at first this would seem like they had finally learned their lesson and apologized, the things they add on after the @s become quickly worrying. Not only do they admit to ‘have gotten into trouble with this stuff before’, meaning they have probably shown their transphobia in other places and been called out, but they also stand firmly on the fact that they will never understand it or ‘get’ it.

And of course, as jymble points out, the implication that the people they were talking to were only acting like that because they were young.

A while after this post was made, Pazam had posted an apology, and went onto contact jymble asking for the post with the evidence of their transphobic to be taken down. The reason? They were afraid people would see it and think they were still transphobic and not give them a chance.

In this more recent post, you can see the conversation play out between Pazam and jymbles. Long story short, Pazam feels that it’s unfair that that post is still up after they apologized, and jymble of course said they would rather not take it down, people deserve to know what they did and take their own conclusions, even if that involves avoiding them. How does Pazam respond? By flat out deleting the apology post. I’d love to show the apology post to give you both sides of the story but I cannot anymore, because Pazam in a very bizarre move just deleted it because they got mad a trans blogger wouldn’t take down their post with proof.

Here’s the transcript of the screenshots:

[Begin Conversation]

rebloggidy (Pazam’s personal):

I’m by no means transphobia-free after learning what I’ve done but at least I know my actions and am making an effort to be a better person towards trans people.

rebloggidy:

Hi again. So I hate to be that person but would it be ok if you took down that post about the transphobia claims? I know it took me 9 months to apologize but if people only see your side of the story and not realize the post I saw they’ll take it out of context and still think I’m transphobic. Do you understand?

jymble:

... i already told you im not taking down the post.

[jymble sends a screenshot of her own message in a previous conversation, the screenshot reads as follows:

however, i dont think im taking the post down, nor am i entirely comfortable with you interacting with me either. people deserve to know how you acted with this stuff, until youre really and truly *better* with it instead of just trying, and i was a direct target of it]

jymble:

you oughright told me "im by no means transphobia-free", word for word sorry, but i told you before. im not taking the post down.

rebloggidy:

I remember that. But what I'm trying to say to you is that if people who read it out of context will immediately think I'm still transphobic without the other side of it (my comment)

And I don't want people to think that in the future

jymble:

if people make assumptions without looking at the entire situation, thats on them

i am not deleting the post and thats final. people have a right to know what youve done, and they have a right to be uncomfortable

rebloggidy:

I'm ready to take down my post because frankly, I'm sick and tired of having to justifiy something that I did 9 months ago, and that people grow and learn even not 100% during that time and I'm ready to move on.

I'm still into smile for me and feel free to make a blacklist of my name so anybody who rbs my work on your dash can have it hidden or something.

Take care.

[End conversation]

a lot to unpack here, but perhaps most notable is when jymble simply stands her ground and tells pazam she wont take down the post, pazam straight up decides, without being told to or anything, that they should take down their apology. later on, they made a post stating why they deleted the post, and saying they had ‘been forced to’.

I also would love to link it here, but as of now of writing this, like, not even an hour or so after I had seen that post, it got deleted. The only memory I have of it is a conversation I had with my boyfriend about Pazam, in which I copypasted a fragment from that post that read:

“ So for those wondering where the apology post went, I was forced to delete it. I wanted to archive it in some way so I could pull it up for reference, but there was no way I could. Also I didn’t really want to see it every time on my blog because quite honestly it’s upsetting to look at.”

There are some lies and twisting of truths here. Pazam wasn’t forced to delete it, they decided they should do it as a way to somehow get back at jymble. And the excuse that it was upsetting for them to look at is just inexcusable, what matters most, letting people know of what youve done and that youre sorry, or just never addressing the situation?

But, well, I’m just hoping you’ll take my word for it. As you see, Pazam has officially deleted ANY traces of acknowledging this situation on their blog.

This worries me. If Pazam is truly as concerned that they will be seen as transphobic as they claim, why are they deleting anything that could give them a chance of showing their own side of the story?

Now, that is the end, for now, of Pazam’s history with transphobia. However! It is not the end for some other very shady things.

Namely, Pazam has consistently whitewashed characters from Smile For Me, specially Kamal, and when called out on it, simply deletes the asks.

Want to know how I know this?

I sent them an ask myself. I had come across this picture of Boris and Kamal:

And I knew that this wasn’t right. I can understand using light colors and doing watercolor, but if they can make Boris’ hair brown and vivid enough, why not Kamal? He looks like another character completely, or like he’s deathly sick!

So I sent them an anonymous ask, perhaps a bit exhasperated, true, and my wording could be better. It went something like: “i am begging you to draw kamal with darker skin”.

I waited, checked. But nothing came of it. They never answered it.

Pazam flat out ignored when they were told they had drawn a canonically brown man with skin way too light. Not even a lone text post saying ‘hey anon, i dont agree with you’ or ‘hey anon im sorry it wont happen again’. Nothing. No word, no opinion.

And with this situation going on with them evading responsibility, I can’t say I’m fully surprised.

And, yet another thing. People had expressed concern over the fact they had drawn their Flower Kid, who is 17, in very intimate and close positions with Dr. Habit. It included nuzzling faces, cuddling in bed together, wearing his coat...

And they did hear the claims this time. As of now, their Flower Kid is 24, according to them.

Except... They do not look 24. At. All.

this is a 12 year old. at best. short body, stubby legs, big head. those are all attributes of a very young character, usually children. like, legitimately, thats how childrens anatomy is in real life. the younger the person, the bigger their head is in proportion to their body.

We have already had an adult trying to justify drawing their flower kid who barely looked like an adult if at all in intimate situations with Habit. Let’s not let it slide by again.

And yes, I’m aware Pazam claims that those pictures were not supposed to be interpreted as romantic, ‘only platonic fluff’ and that they intend to keep it that way, but I have talked to my boyfriend who is a survivor and he said it very well could be a case of someone just trying to cover their tracks.

BUT, all that being said, maybe this one particular instance could be just us being wary. Still, it does not diminish all that they have done, specially ignoring the whitewashing claims.

What you are going to do with this information, I do not know. Maybe you don’t care and will keep reblogging their content. Maybe you’re disgusted by them. But I’m just here to give you the facts. Personally though, I’m not willing to give them much of a chance after the way they’ve behaved. They are 24 years old, three years older than me, and I think I could do a better job of handling a situation like this, frankly.

#don't be scared. i am here with you.#smile for me #smile for me game

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somaybeimbiased · 6 years ago

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You know, we all suffered a tragedy. But the reality is, we didn't know him. We only knew who he showed us. And if you think you are hurt, I can guarantee that those 4 boys feel the pain you do X100. Key recently said that he was disappointed in fans, because people can't let it go, they won't stop talking about it. And I couldn't agree more. I'm sorry to say that I am going to unfollow you, as well as a handful of others, because I don't want to feel this pain every time I'm online.

I’m sorry, but I’m not sure why you felt the need to announce to me that you are unfollowing me. I care deeply about my followers, and this is the first time anyone has ever said that it bothers them so much. And since you are on anon I can’t quite say whether I am disappointed you are unfollowing me or not. But before you leave an anon message to someone, maybe take into consideration about how they feel. I’ve already been vocal about how strong I think Jonghyun’s personal loved ones are. On how strong the members of SHINee are. I’ve have said it time and time again how I can’t even imagine how they must feel. But while they feel more pain than I do, that doesn’t mean I’m not feeling anything. That’d be the same as telling someone who is hungry that they shouldn’t complain bc there are children starving all over the world. Do not dismiss and invalidate my feelings.

You should also take into consideration that everyone goes through pain their own way. I’ve been a Shawol since 2010, I was 11 at the time, and I have grown up listening to SHINee. Was I as involved back then? No, but I still knew who they were, and they were the only kpop group I listen to for a long time until I got older. I grew up listening to Lucifer, Ring Ding Dong, and all of their music until now. SHINee is the only group, the only entertainers, the only anything I have followed and kept tabs on, bought merch from, etc. The loss of Jonghyun hit me hard because a lot was going on in my life as well. I am diagnosed with severe clinical depression as well as anxiety, as well as therapist diagnosed paranoia. Ever since I was a kid, that made it very difficult to move on from things. When my grandfather died when I was 12, I wouldn’t talk to anyone until we had the service. And I felt like I couldn’t cry. I didn’t cry until a month afterward. I felt like everyone had forgotten that it has already been a month, and I cried and got so angry with my parents. It’s still hard for me to go to my grandfather’s old bedroom when I visit my grandma. I am someone who holds onto things and I become sentimental and that’s who I cope. Yes, slowly, it does get better, but people like you don’t make it any easier. I want to quickly address what you said about Key. And you show me a link or an account of him saying that ‘ he was disappointed in fans because people can’t let it go, they won’t stop talking about it.’ Becuase dang, I follow them pretty closely and I haven’t seen one thing about him saying this. I also asked a few Shawol friends of mine about it and they said the same thing as me. I even googled it, and you know that if Kibum said something like this, the internet would be talking about it. He did say he was upset at the fans who claimed they were only doing ‘From Now On’ for the money. Or that he was afraid to go out after the incident because people weren’t treating him regularly. But never in a million years would I think Kibum would say this. Telling us to ‘let it go’ and stop talking about it? Telling us to forget about it and move on from Jonghyun, when he and the rest of SHINee have been so outspoken about keeping the memories of Jonghyun alive and keeping Jonghyun as a part of SHINee? Ridiculous.

I am sorry for posting on my blog how I feel sometimes. But it is my blog, and I will post what I want to post on it. If I wanted to turn it into a SpongeBob meme account I could, because it’s my account. And I’m not sorry for saying this, but if you’re going around and making Shawols feel bad for missing someone, idol or not, who we hold dearly to our hearts, I do not care if you unfollowed me. I don’t want people like that following me anyways. We are Shawols, and we are supposed to raise each other up and offer support, not tear each other down. I would understand if you see my posts sometimes at night when I’m upset and I have nowhere else to go and you decided to unfollow me because of that. I would get it. But you have no right to come to my blog, put fake words into Kibum’s mouth, and then announce you’re unfollowing me. It’s rude, and you have done nothing but make me feel bad for how I sometimes still get sad. You won’t see this, because you unfollowed me, but I wanted to address the fact that Shawols who are going around and harassing other Shawols for still going through hard times are not true Shawols. SHINee doesn’t want us to forget him. And so we wont ever forget him, but you have to realize that while still supporting them, and listening to their music, nostalgia and emotions will come around. There are good days and bad nights sometimes. That’s just how it is. And I know I’m not the only Shawol who still gets upset at times. You can’t act like all I post it about how sad I am. If I couldn’t stand to think about Jonghyun, I wouldn’t write what I do and create the content I do. I would support SHINee the way I do. But everyone goes through rough patches.

Have a great day.

Edit: This is sent to me last night and I just got upset over it. Thats why I asked if me sharing my personal thoughts on here actually bothered anyone in my last post.. Thanks

#personal #shinee #tw #shinee world

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chazmarkleybeyondthescreen · 7 years ago

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Let’s Kick this Blog off

If you’re reading this then you probably already know me, or have some kind of interaction with me on social media (Twitter). Anyways, I will be using this as an outlet for my thoughts & Ideas about the markets, My trades, my week, my charts, my routines etc. you get the point.

Since its my first post I’ll start by giving you a little background. I am 26 years old from Southern California. I recently moved to Vegas (part time, I will be going back and forth) I started trading options at age 20. Ups, downs, ups, downs. Recently (last year or so Ive been focusing particularly on the S&P index $SPX as a whole and it has proven to be more successful than anything else I have done.

WHY?

UPDATE: HERE IS THE THREAD

I trade $SPX for several reasons and we actually had a thread on twitter a weekend long about it. I will try and track it down and link it here but here is a simple, short and concise explanation (mind you these are just the beginnings(read the thread and you’ll see))

I/ME/CHAZ. Trade $SPX because it offers you 3 expirations a week Mon/Wed/Fri. To me this creates AMAZING opportunity. I can tae advantage of Friday exp option movement (10/20/30 baggers) 3 days a week. That is my biggest reason for trading the spx. There are other reasons like how it settles to cash.

What? That means if your option expires ITM(in the money) you will NOT have that option exercised and assigned shares you simply get to go to sleep and wake up in the morning to that option value deposited in your account. Again, I wont go on anymore about this as there is a massive thread with great info from a ton of great traders. It details risks, tax situations and more I’ll do my best to find it and link it here after I post this.

I trade the $SPX off of a 15 minute chart. This is all personal preference and from my experience it has worked the best for ME. We don’t all have to trade the same exact way! in the following posts (market recaps etc ) I will be including the charts I was using the levels I put on the chart and thus made my trade decisions based off of...

in due time.

I think thats plenty for an opening post as I tend to ramble and nobody likes that shit. My next one will be my new Morning routine. Why the hell I do it and the changes Im feeling from it.

Have a great Saturday!

-Chaz Markley (not Chaz Markley Trading. Just Chaz Markley)

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craftedcoils-blog-blog · 4 years ago

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The Coward Adventurer

"I think I'm slowly growing a mustache that will conduct a transvestite orchestra."

I looked at him briefly during the downwards arc of my glance, "well thats good", and I meant it sincerely, "because someones gotta do it. This bastard over here", I gestured towards the other room and through the doorway, "he's got slugs for days but wont grow the balls to commit."

He sat with his bass guitar, teeth clenched, managing a few acronyms "Ehh?" like a frantic centipede on his last legs, disregarding it all to return to some strange form of science.

"No matter", I said, redirecting my attention towards the maniac trying to sleep at my feet, "I think you should cool your guns. It happens, it happens. You can't expect something to happen if it hasn't happened before. Right?"

In the beginning I was approached by Dynastic Industries to commission a musical piece based on the time I spent in Indonesia. I was there initially to do some work for a successful blog I was a part of called Why Where and What the Fuck. And why the fuck D.I. approached me or chose to employ me in any way or for any reason at all still bewilders me.

WWWF had initially hired me as a writer when they caught me on camera during a Turkish uprising kind of thing in Berlin dressed up as an Osama Bin Laden clown character and giving away free condoms to all the turkish children, or at least I told WWWF that this was my agenda and since then i've sort of become their mozart genius marionette. Letting them pay for me to travel around and be kind of an idiot in the process.

And one time they sent me to Indonesia. I had this guide named Yusef. Yusef loved everything I did but all I really did was just get drunk the entire time I was there. I think I managed some scribbles on the backs of other people's suicide notes or maybe I had etched a few artistically interpreted Sumarian glyphs on random pieces of pottery, maybe a few pages of notebooks here and there. But certainly not anything at all to write home about; Like literally no writing got home at all. It wasn't even Youtubed. They wrote the entire article from translations of the Yusef's journal. I mean, Interpreting his dialect into a palpable demonstration of my experiences from the view point of a native who was also insane and spent most of our time sitting around trees while he wrote about eternal chaos and the derivatives of perspective in that goddamn journal is great but it may or may not say anything about what I was actually experiencing.

The whole time its just me, staring at him, wondering why I cant write a word. (….) I now realize its because I was watching myself write and there was nothing to add. By being obsessively observational, I had become my own guide in my own right. And I guess it panned out...

Or maybe it didn't. At this point I am completely unsure.

For example: I don't have a lot of standards for living and still there are things now that are capable of disrupting what I have always thought to be eternal. Because of the situation I have currently found myself in, I no longer feel as if I have a subtle and well conceived balance and I feel as if I have become a monster in trying to achieve such a thing even though I know it's already there and it's something that had been in front of me my entire life. And here It's like I am constantly trying to balance the finite with the infinite and in the end all I am is shit and that's what I see. It is what you become. White drapes on white sheets with dirty boot scuffs on the trim and dirty oatmeal floors and moldy shower curtains, but everything set to a standard you have set either way. And peoples' minds, constantly enforcing, even if they are rudimentary. Especially so. I had to say fuck it all or become it all. To me it really has not or has ever made a difference at all which way I lean. But of course this is my fault, and because of this perhaps I am a mutant, the holder of the all seeing hand, detached, and it's beckoning the circus freak inside to be let loose, and yet, to live this way is not out of pride or conviction, necessity or convenience and, quite possibly, not even out of lack of trying. But because it is my basic human stigmatic function to build a home and relish in its 'my-ness' whether its a shopping cart or a castle. I have no choice. I am driven to order and none of us can escape it. Even the most avant-garde lifestyle is a victim. Its a 12 tone composition gone wrong, or right, it no longer matters for there is always a boundary.

We were passing through the sewers. Gulping sounds stuck out like we were being sucked into some undercurrent. We came across a television stuck in the wall. It was the "Old Last Time Agenda Variety Show" and there was Razputin, the social phenomenon that was just recently resurfacing from a long term hibernation and public disappearance, his face always recognizable. He stood with his guitar and legendary mustache, the orchestra moving with each flowing twitch. As the bouncy music continues, the camera widened to show his famous and, although now sagging a bit, voluptuous breasts . The dance number began and 2 women and a man appeared, they linked arms with Raz himself and tapped around each other to swaying rhythms and choreography patterns, like drunken swans. The music began to swell and Razputin began to open chambers of his body like cupboards in german kitchen. Hands appeared out of nowhere to reveal his various implants and gender surgery. He revealed his cock, which was filleted into two pieces and inverted, exposed from the inside out. He flicked it like a guitar string and smiled ferociously. His mustache was now two huge, stretching arms. Another drawer revealed what seemed to be his intestines. His face became nontransparent and the music kept bouncing along. He reached down and plucked his bloody coils like a harp, ruffing them up as if to break the strings and find some kind of new tonality, as if to say that none of this mattered, his martyrdom, strange that it was so accepted, but we all knew that this was big.

"Man, this will probably be on the news."

"Yeah of course it will. This is huge."

He kept going at it like some kind of sexual torture, throwing his organs around inside of what was left of himself and still maintaining that maniacal grin. The other dancers began to force him out, concerned with the drunken patterns that he was disrupting. But he kept on, his body now three times wider, revealing parts of himself that could not be contained.

Eventually he was forced off stage and everyone cheered. I remember thinking that this was not something to take lightly as the dancers bowed and accolades were distributed. This was not some typical piece of choreography to briefly consider and then forget.

The haunting voices of the dead appeared again.

"Lets go," someone seemed to have said, and we were off, our feet like popcorn in a mushroom patch.

Things stuck out to us then like blue flowers in a field of wilted dandelions. Our senses were too abrupt. We had found a church.

Like ruins.

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edgyearring · 7 years ago

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List of threads I am probably going to drop (unless u wanna continue. im tagging ya so just lemme know)

also readmore b/c uhh this got long ?? heck. this list might not even be complete but ill make a new one if i drop a whole lot more gfdgfh

@kunaiflourish this thread. It could still have potential but we were talking over IM abt doing a new thing so i figured I’d drop this one unless u wanted to keep it going.

@mind-slice this thread. I’m not entirely sure where to go with this so gfdhgh I do have an idea for a thread between our muses though if you’d be down?

@strayshccp this thread. largely b/c you havent been on in like 7 months gdfhgj but if u come back on there and wanna continue this, lemme know.

@emptyfortresses this thread. You also haven’t been on in a long while so i wasn’t sure if u would want to continue or not (i know u have been around though but i also know u got a lot of blogs too so gdgdfhg)

@lercvolutionnaire this thread. ‘Cause ya haven’t been around and as previously mentioned, I’m slow garbage. If you get on and see this and want to continue tho just hmu.

@arcanepaths this thread. My Katsuya muse went back to limbo so gdfhfgh he is still v supportive of his bro and his boyfriends though *thumbs up* (though maybe a lil concerned about Naoya’s sometimes legally questionable activities but shh. also tho since kats is on my multi-muse feel free to hit him up for s/t new later)

ALSO this thread and this thread. b/c honestly they r good but i feel like maybe we should start fresh stuff later when ur ready 2 be active on ur persona multi-muse again

@linktoremnantspast this one. (saw you moved ur akira so i thought id ask if u wanted to continue this or if you were just gonna try and start fresh with him over there?)

@loppye and @arsera u wrote me some starters but im a garbage baby and couldnt come up with a good reply and now it’s been mONTHS. id def still like to rp tho so i can write u starters if you’d like?? or we can plot a lil. yee.

@thedetectiveofinaba @yukino-mayuzumi-rp I usually try to keep such good tabs on my rps but i hecking lost ours ?? idk if there’s any you wanna continue or not so like fdgdgf lemme kno, yo.

and uhh u kno what instead of repeating myself a bunch let’s just say the one’s listed after this are all being dropped b/c they’re months old and if u wanna continue them or do s/t new just lemme know.

@dualitythief @aerasmousai this thread.

@snowheist this thread.

Also @axesona @fistsona u get a special list b/c we have 5000000 threads and instead of sending the links over IM this felt less messy gfdhgh

This one because I figured may as well fdsgfd we got other threads with Reiji and woof Naoya

This one because well.. it’s crack and it was def fun but idk how much further it woulda gone anywho (also chris was abt to die. rip.)

This one ‘cause it was also fun and funny but i dont think it was gonna go v far fsdgfg (feel free to have reiji scream @ brown abt it on my multi-muse tho, pfft.)

This one ‘cause I figure it’d wrap up soon anywho. (bless mark for cheering up woof tho. 10/10)

This one because I figure we can like.... merge it kinda with the one where nyarly is manipulating Reiji into murdering ppl fdsgfdg just have naoya confront reiji abt it and ect.

This one because uhh it’s an A+ au but i kinda realized it might be boring having them just go on through the P1 plot when we both know it already fdsgdgff although some changes could happen like Takahisa convincing Reiji to team up with the others earlier on. ALSO u can bet ur ass that there’d be some kinda big bro protects little bro moment where kandori jumps in between reiji and an enemy or s/t (b/c reiji is a stubborn heck and wont listen so he gets into danger more than he should smh)

This one because it’s kinda at a good stopping point but like... im game 2 do a continuation/time skip thing because this AU is def interesting.

ALSO maybe a few starters i owe u i might drop (there’s only 2 here i owe u on naoya tho fdgdgf one i feel more muse for than the other so we’ll see ?? might do one or both or neither gfdhfh)

and uhh while im at it this one with tats and lisa but like maybe not?? idk if i wanna drop it or maybe do a timeskip type of thing hmhmh. i just cant quite figure out how to write i reply to this specifically *crie s*

and probably the grocery store reiji and kandori thread, pfft. doing a follow up or s/t might be interesting tho? maybe they run into each other again at like... idk a fast food joint (reiji spits in kandori’s taco bell. I mean what.)

#ooc; can we apply the penal code to demons?#hey im rachel and i have a bIG THREAD PROBLEM #it took me forever to like collect these all up and decide what all i wanted to actually drop and jsut gdfhfh

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wumingsflower · 7 years ago

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Life Update and Future of Captain Swan Source

Hey everyone,

I am posting this late so I know the chance of people seeing it is slim, but it’s the only time I really have right now so I might as well do it. Lately, my life has had some serious ups and downs and major life shifts. Currently I am dealing with depression and on top of that, my great grandmother went into emergency surgery last Wednesday due to an abdominal aortic aneurism.

Ever since then I have literally not been home, not been sleeping, not been able to do anything else except be with her during the recovery. She is 94 years old and the recovery has not been going well, however medically and physically she is doing well, she also suffers from severe depression. So we have been working very hard to help her get her pep back, her life back. But it’s been an exhausting and draining experience. Driving back and forth every single day, sometimes multiple times a day to be with her. Staying over night in the hospital and so on.

On top of that is my own depression that I have had a hard time swinging out of. But I know this isn’t really what you want to read. So lets move on to Once and the future of the blog.

So some things you should know. Yes. I will be tuning in to this season of Once. I love Disney, which is why I tuned into Once in the first place. They will still be telling Disney tales so I am excited to see that. And above all else, Colin is returning. I adore him, I adore Hook and how he portrays Hook and I am excited to see this new version of Hook.

I am utterly distraught about no Captain Swan. Obviously, as you know by the title of my blog, they were the most important feature in Once to me. They were everything. And honestly I got quite depressed when Jen said she wouldn’t be returning. I am still kind of dealing with that loss. I turned to Once as my source of happiness and escape from reality and when she said she was leaving I really felt lost. Like... my source of joy was gone wth was I gonna do. I have tried to change my mindset about the new season. I am open to seeing what it has to offer, HOWEVER. I have also decided I will not be linking this season to the previous ones. To me, this is a whole new show. By choosing this mindset, I can look more positively towards the upcoming season. If Colin would have ditched Once and joined another show, I would have tuned into his new show. So I feel incredibly lucky I get to watch him continue to play my favorite character in a show about Disney stories and fairytales. So I really hope they make the new season good and give it that boost it’s needed for several seasons.

As for the future of this blog, I’m not going anywhere. However. Due to my busy life at the moment, I fear I do not have the time or energy to be a source of the Live Stream posts anymore. Maybe over time I will get back into that, but as for right now, I will not be posting any more “Once Upon a Sunday (Friday)” posts. As for giffing the night of the episodes, I haven’t decided. If the episode has enough Killian Jones, if I cling to a new OTP, or find a particular storyline very captivating, maybe. But right now, I don’t know enough to make that call.

I will still be giffing. And I will still be giffing past seasons with Captain Swan. But most importantly, I just fear I wont be able to be the wonderful news source I once was for this fandom. Life has officially gotten in the way. Again, maybe over time, and if this season is worth it even, I may get back into it full swing. But as for now, I will be giffing in my spare time and trying to enjoy the episodes on Friday. I will also likely still be liveblogging. I need some form of entertainment back in my life to help me get out of this funk, so you can expect that.

OH and as for the Captain Swan Chatroom. I am going to do my best to bring that back soon. Please stay tuned about that.

ANYWAY, this post really got long and probably longer than it needed to be. But I have been so out of touch with you guys. I have lost so many followers from my absence, but to those of you who stuck around. Thank you. I appreciate you. I’m not dead. Just never home I guess. I hope those of you who will be tuning in tomorrow can find enjoyment in the new season. I look forward to watching with you guys! And until tomorrow night, take care everyone xoxoxo

-Chelsea

#my life #update #site news #captain swan

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captainvictoryboat · 7 years ago

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Behind The Scenes 4 (1/?)

Author’s note: So all this scene is from my rough draft (and the part from the sneak peek) so i am sorry that if some details aren’t too good and all. Again, I’m sorry that i cant finish the series, but as i explained i just can;t keep writing this anymore. I will also not be putting the link to the other parts because for some reason i can’t get it to work. So think rest of the posts will be in my blog profile.

This posts wont be linked to the rest of the series, they will just be linked to each other (when i post the rest of what i have) since there are not too many posts. This series also does not have it’s own GIF since i finished neither BTS 4 or the GIF for it.

Summary: Jin finally sees Jinjin after the tour.

Word Count: 4013

WARNINGS: Physical abuse

Part 2| ALL PARTS

This is my GIF. I made this for the last part, but i didn’t make a new one.

It was a cold 6 am as he walked down the snow packed sidewalk toward the familiar neighborhood. The exhausting performance of the night before were over ridden by the excitement he had over today.

In one arm he carried a bag of gifts meant for his son while his other arm adjusted the strap of his backpack filled with a change of clothes and other essentials.

Throughout his relatively quiet walk, he mentally prepared himself to the idea of sleeping on the floor of his son’s room for the next few nights and he day dreamed of the activities he had planes for the both of them.

Suddenly there was a distant sound of annoying barks that busted him out f his bubble. Soon he saw a tiny dog appeared almost out of nowhere. It was dressed in a pink sweater with matching pink booties and it was dragging a blue leash from its collar.

It yapped as it ran awkwardly in his direction. Jin couldn’t care less about the dog. He didn’t pay much mind to it until it began nipping at his pant leg. Under normal circumstances, he would have kicked the dog off and walked away, but today was different. Not even the annoying pup could piss him off this early, heck, he even found the small animal to be a bit cute.

He placed down his bag of gifts and picked up the golden furball.

“And who are you?” he asked it.

He noticed the dog’s purple collar “Hmm, let’s see, your name iiiiis… Peach? Wait… isn’t that the names of Jinjin’s dog?” he asked himself.

He brought the dog closer to his face to make eye contact with it. “Are you Jinjin’s puppy? Huuuuh? Are you?”

“Peach?!? Peach?!? Where are you?!?” Jin could hear a small voice from the direction he saw the dog run from.

Within 2 seconds, his now six year old son appeared from around the corner. Jinjin was in his thickest green jacket, a pair of black sweatpants (probably wearing a second pair under them) and in his snow boots. Wrapped around the little face that looked so much like his father’s, was his favorite Mario themed scarf and atop his head was a red beanie with a Mario logo.

“Peach?!? Peach- Dad? Daddy?!?” his son’s eyes lit up when he spotted him. “Daddy!” he squealed as his small legs moved faster.

Jin stood frozen as he took in the image of his son. Jinjin had grown taller since he last saw him. The chubby cheeks he pinched so much were not as chubby as they used to be and he shaven hair was now long enough to be combed down and poke out from his beanie.

Jin placed the dog down, leash still in hand, and opened his arms for his son to run to him.

Jin’s heart melted when Jinjin’s little body jumped to him.

“Daddy, daddy, daddy!” Jinjin chanted as he wrapped his arms tight around him, “Finally you are home!”

Jin didn’t care of his son’s cheerful and loud voice would wake neighbors, he was just happy to see his boy. “Ugh, I missed you Jinjin!” he pulled his mask off and covered his son’s face with kisses. “But, my little Jinsoo, what did I tell you about talking to strangers?!? For all you know, I was a bad man that could have stolen you!” he said with a slightly serious tone.

“But I knew it was you! You always wear the same bear mouth!” his son stated as he pointed to the bear mouth print on his face mask.

“Aish, you got me there, but why are you out here by yourself?!?”

Jinjin shook his head. “I am not alone. I was with Peach and Greg!”

“Greg? Who the fu- Who is Greg?”

“Jinjin?!? Jinjin where are you?!?” a man’s voice called out.

From the same corner his child came from, emerged a tall, thin man. Even at a distance it was easy to tell the man was taller than Jin. What was most noticeable was the blond hair that refused to stay in his black beanie.

“I’m over here!” Jinjin shouted as he waved his arms in the air.

The stranger’s blue eyes locked on Jin and his long legs pushed through the snow. “Hey! Put that boy down!” he shouted with an awkward accent.

Jin simply scoffed, “No!”

The “Greg” person was soon two strides away, his arm already loaded to land a punch when Jinjin finally said. “Greg, look! My dad is here!”

Instantly, Greg stopped in his tracks, slipping on the ice a bit. It took him a moment to catch his balance. “Oh!” he huffed. His cheeks grew even more red. “So, uh, you must be Seokjin?”

“The one and only.” Jin half smiled.

Greg nodded. “I’ve, uh, heard a lot about you…” he mumbled as his eyes danced between Jin and his son.

“And you are?”

“Oh! Where are my manners?” he gave a quick bow and then his hand shot out to give a handshake. “I’m Greg! I-“

“He’s mom’s boyfriend!” Jinjin finished

Jin’s eyes narrowed at the flushed faced man. “I didn’t know that Mina was in a relationship… and with a foreigner no less” he added under his breath.

“Dad, who is Mina?” Jinjin asked in confusion.

He couldn’t help let out a chuckle at how adorable his son was. “Jinjin, that’s your mom’s name.”

“What?!? Mommy’s name isn’t mommy?”

“I can’t believe I missed out on all this cute!” Jin smiled as he squeezed his son’s still pinchable cheeks.

Jin turned back to the man. Greg’s hand was still out for a handshake. However, instead of shaking his hand, he gave him the dog’s leash. “So, Mina’s boyfriend?” He asked in a darker tone. “How long has this been going on?”

“Almost a year.”

Jin blatantly scanned Greg from head to toe. “A year? Is that so? And where are you from Greg? You obviously aren’t from here.”

“I’m from England.”

“And you met Mina how?”

“Friends of friends.” Was Greg’s vague answer.

“I see… Well… Why don’t we get out of this cold?” Jin suggested with a fake smile

The walk to the house was not as awkward as it could have been, Jinjin spoke the whole time. He mostly talked about being so excited for Jin to come home that he stayed up all night and that Greg suggested they walk Peach as they waited for him. His son was a good distraction to his boiling rage. However, just like the small dog, this Greg guy wasn’t going to be enough to upset Jin, at least not yet anyway.

His ex stared at him in confusion. “Seokjin? I didn’t expect you here this early.” She said as she let them in the warm house.

“Well hello to you too. As I recall, I told a little someone that I would be here first thing in the morning.” Jin turned to the boy in his arms in fake anger. “Jinjin, I thought I told you to tell your mother.”

“Haha, I forget!” Jinjin admitted as he hid behind his hands.

His ex rolled her eyes, “That’s what happens when you trust a six year old.”

Jin scoffed.” One has no other choice than to trust a six year old when the mother is acting like a six year old and won’t pick up her phone!” he said through his teeth

“Not answering my phone doesn’t make me a six year old. I was just busy doing some adult things.” She smirked, her eyes gliding towards Greg.

“So that’s what you do instead of being a mother?” Jin asked out right.

Mina’s head whipped back at him, her eyes warning him not to start anything,

He tried hard to hold himself back from doing something he would regret.

“C’mon Jinjin, why don’t we go up to your room and you show me your toys.” he huffed. Jin walked up the stairs, escaping the woman he only somewhat regretted meeting, carrying the boy that made up for that mistake.

He entered Jinjin’s room, it only looking slightly different from when he last visited a few years ago. The walls were still blue, covered in all things Mario. There were more toys thrown everywhere if anything and the bed was a bit bigger for his growing frame.

Jinjin slid out of his hands and ran over to his toy box. “Daddy! Do you want to see my toys?”

“Jinjin I think that can wait a minute. Why don’t you let daddy test out your new bed?” He suggested as he threw himself into the mattress. The bed was too small for him and his feet hung over the edge, but he was so tired, it didn’t matter.

“Jinjin, it is really early, why don’t we take a nap.” He yawned.

“Ok!” Jinjin moved some of the small toys he had left on his bed and crawled up next to him, still dressed in his outside clothes. With his son nestled in his arm, Jin fell to sleep quickly.

He awoke to the feeling of little fingers trying to pry his eyes open. “Jinjin, why aren’t you letting daddy sleep?”

“Cake?”

“Jinjin, it is still morning.” He stated as he took a look at his cellphone screen showed 10:45 am.

“But cake!”

He stood up from the bed and took a quick stretch. “Jinjin, let me show you the gifts I got you! We will make the cake later.”

He grabbed his backpack, kneeled by the bed and called Jinjin over.

“Wait! Where is Peach? I want her to see my presents with me!” Jinjin jumped from the bed. “Peach!” he called out as he ran out of the room.

He soon returned carrying his tiny dog. Jinjin jumped on the bed and made Peach sit next to him. “Peach are you ready?” he asked the dog.

Jin kept the bag hidden behind the bed.

“Okay, here is the first present!” At random, he pulled out the gift Jackson had picked out for him. “So this is from your daddy’s friend Jackson. You remember Jackson from GOT7 right? He knew you liked Mario and picked this out because he thought it was a mushroom from Mario” He lied.

Jinjin snatched the box, examining it up close. He was neither frowning nor smiling at his gift. “Hm… Pokemon… I don’t know pokemon a lot.”

“But?”

“But what?”

“But, it is still nice that he remembered you and likes you enough to buy you a toy right?” Jin said, pulling the gratitude out of his only slightly spoiled son.

“Yeah!” Jinjin smiled. “Can you tell him thank you!” he asked, remembering his manners

“Of course! Now time for the stuff I got you!”

Jinjin’s eyes widened once more and he pulled himself up straight trying to peek over the edge of the bed.

“Ok, so I ordered this online so I left it in the box. I only took it out to make sure it was the right size.”

He handed Jinjin the box and the young one attacked it. The box flew across the room as Jinjin found the Mario onesie within it.

“Wow!” Jinjin cheered. “I can be Mario!”

He didn’t even waste time. He ripped off his top winter layer and pulled on the onesie. When all was done, it was only a size or two too big. Good, so that it would last him a while.

“It fits!”

Jin couldn’t help but smile as Jinjin ran over to his Mario hat and put it on.

Jin then pulled out the next gift. “I was in Japan and I remembered how you told me your DS broke, so I got you a new one! They ran out of red ones, but I got you a green one.”

Again Jinjin was in a fit of glee, jumping onto his father with open arms.

Jin’s last gift was a handful of age appropriate games for the new DS, that only made Jinjin more excited to play it.

It wasn’t until his son had calmed down and was indulged in one of the new games, that he decided to get serious.

“Jinjin?”

“Huh?” Jinjin’s eyes were glued to the double screens.

“Why didn’t you ever bring Greg up before?” He asked this softly, scared that Mina could be in the hall and overhear.

“Mommy said not to.” Jinjin said in a zombie like tone.

“Why?” He could feel his anger toward his ex growing.

All the small boy did was shrug his shoulders

“Jinjin, what else has Mommy told you not to tell me?” He tried to keep his voice calm.

“Um…” Jinjin was too focused on the game to really think.” Uh.”

“Jinsoo, pause the game.”

Jinjin did as told. “Um, we might go to Greg’s house this summer.” He finally said.

“Greg’s house? Where exactly is Greg’s house?”

Jinjin shrugged again. “In English. That is what mommy said.”

“English? What do you- England?!?

“Yeah that!” Jinjin said as he played his game again.

“That motherfucking bitch!” Jin thought. “First she doesn’t tell me about that buck-tooth brit and now she is going to take my son to England!” he stood up. “Jinjin, why don’t you put that game away and let’s go down to the kitchen and start baking your cake.” He needed to get his mind off this. He couldn’t afford to get mad now. He wasn’t going to let that bitch ex of his ruin his mood.

Now in the kitchen, Jin searched for the ingredients. He let the stories of Jinjin’s last few months drain out the sounds of Mina’s and Greg’s giggles coming from the living room.

“Uh-huh… Wow…That’s great Jinjin…” He said robotically.

His frustration grew as his search came to an end and the only ingredients he had were eggs.

“What the fuck?!?” he grunted so that Jinjin couldn’t hear him.

He took a deep breath and decided to look a second time. This time with each failed attempt, he was beginning to slam the cabinets and drawers shut harder and harder.

Jinjin not at all phased by his father’s little tantrum, continued to play on the floor with Peach still in his Mario onesie.

However, the boy’s mother soon walked in.

“Jinjin, is that you playing hide and seek with Peach again?” she asked as she walked into the room. She still had a hint of a smile on her face.

Just seeing her face made Jin pissed. “Where the fuck are the fucking ingredients I asked you to get?!?” he snapped

“Ooh! Dad said a bad word!” Jinjin snickered. “Now you have to put a dollar in the swear jar!”

Jin quickly realized that he was still in the presence of his son and tried to calm down for a moment. “Jinjin, take Greg up to your room and show him the presents I got you.”

“Ok!” Jinjin jumped up and ran to the living room. “Greg! Greg! Come see my presents!”

Jin’s angry eyes then locked on Mina once more. Her arms were crossed and she was rolling her stupid ass eyes at him. “I was busy.” Was her sad ass excuse.

“Busy being a whore?!?” he spat

She furrowed her brow at him. “Just because I have a boyfriend doesn’t make me a whore! I have a fucking life Seokjin! I got out, I work, I take care of Jinjin all by myself!”

Jin couldn’t help but laugh at her saying the word “work”. “What do you mean you work?!? You make crappy ass DIYs and sell them to fat lazy bitches online! I am the one that works! I am the one that is providing for you and Jinjin!” he reminded, slowing moving in on her. “I am working my ass off and worried about my son and your over here fucking some random dude!”

“Don’t give me shit just because you are jealous!” she had the audacity to say.

Again he couldn’t help but laugh at her stupidity. “Jealous? Me? Me?!?”. He took a big step towards her. “If anything I feel nothing but pity for Greg because he hasn’t found out what a stupid conniving little bitch you are!” he said through his teeth.

She squinted her beady eyes at him. “I am neither stupid or conniving!” she stated in an actual attempt to defend herself.

Jin pushed her up against the fridge, “Yes you are!” he growled.

“How so?!?” she stood back up only to get pushed back again.

“How about lying about your parents kicking you when they found out you were pregnant. That you wanted to live with me because they were going to force you to have an abortion and move you away somewhere else?!? Or how about threatening to have an abortion when I wanted to break up with you when I found about that lie?!? Then going above and beyond to keep me away from my son for two years, but still take my money to pay for your damn lifestyle!”

“Fuck you!”

Ticked off by her voice, his hand cut through the air and slapped her across the face.

Her hand covered her throbbing cheek, but she still didn’t seem to want to back down.

“And then, you go and bring this European motherfucker into my house and you bring him around my son-“

“He is my son!”

Again his hand attacked her cheek. “How dare you introduce him to Jinsoo! I will die before I let some other motherfucker raise my son! And how stupid can you be to trust someone who can expose everything at a whim?!? He can tell everyone that Jinsoo is my son! The whole world will turn on Jinsoo if they find out!”

“Oh so you can date and let some random bitch around Jinsoo, but I can’t do the same?!?”

Jin could not believe what he was hearing. “Who the fuck could I possibly be dating?!?”

“I know you and Y/n are dating!” she accused.

“How fucking stupid are you?!? Jungkook fucking proposed to her last night you stupid bitch!”

“Oh please! I know you are fucking her! I see the pictures of you and her that Jinjin refuses to remove as his home screen on that stupid tablet you got him. All he ever talks about is dad and y/n dad and y/n dad and y/n!”

“You’re such a fucking-“

This time it was her hand that slapped him. “No! Don’t you dare finish that sentence! I know for a fact that you are dating her! Jinjin told me you all slept in the same bed together!” Mina was too busy blabbing away to notice the fury in Jin’s eyes, his nostrils flaring, his knuckles turning white.

“She and Jungkook are fake and are covering the fact that you are dating her! You all say they have been dating for two over two years or whatever, but she never showed up until a year ago and a half ago! That doesn’t add up! So If you get a girlfriend, I sure as hell can get a boyfriend, so don’t-“

It wasn’t until he punched her mid sentence that Mina let out a scream loud enough to be heard through the house.

He continued to punch her in a fit of rage.

“You fucker!” Greg’s irritated voice shouted as he tackled Jin off Mina. He was able to pin Jin down and unleash a series of blows.

Jin however was not as overpowered as Greg thought. Despite his larger frame, there wasn’t much power behind Greg’s hits. He was nothing compared to Rap monster, Jungkook or V.

All Jin did was let out a grunt as his hands clamped down on Greg’s sweater and pulled him down until their foreheads collided. It was a risky move, but an effective one. Jin wasn’t that dazed and he was able to pin Greg down. Now he was the one on top and he showed Greg what real punches were supposed to feel like.

“So you- think that- you- can just- walk up in- here- like you- own the place?!? You think-you can just- take my place,- take- my family?!?”

His knuckles were more and more raw as he continues beat on Greg, who proved to be a bigger wimp than he thought.

What Jin didn’t see coming was Mina hitting him over the head with the kitchen wok. The slam to the head was enough to daze him but not knock him out

He struggled to his feet and his eyes locked on Mina once again. “Fucking bitch!” he groaned

He made his way up to her only having the strength to pounce on her and bring her to the ground. With the wok out of her hand, she screamed out in fear, her only other form of defense lay across the kitchen floor in pain. “Jinjin! Jinjin! Jinjin call the police!”

“Shut up!” Jin slapped his hand over her slobbery mouth.

He was yelling now. He could feel his throat on fire, but he couldn’t actually hear himself say anything. At this point he had no control over what he was doing. Not even as his fists continued to hit Mina. They just hit and hit and hit. He let himself go wild because how dare she. How dare she risk ruining the plan they kept up for so long, how dare she decide things for his son without his knowledge, who was she to judge him when she knew nothing about anything!

“Mommy!” Jin heard a small cry.

He looked up to find Jinjin standing frozen a few feet in front of him.

Jin stopped immediately “…Jinjin…?” He moved toward him, but at his slightest movement he saw his son flinch.

Instantly Jinjin began to hyperventilate, his young eyes scattered around the room absorbing the scene in front of him.

“…Jinjin…” He said softly as he slowly lifted himself off the floor.

At that move, tears leaked out of the boy’s eyes, terrified of being the next victim.

“Jinjin run!” Mina screamed in her muffled sobs.

“Shut up!” Jin shouted automatically.

This only made Jinjin scream and cry more. He dropped the new DS he had been clenching on to, covered his ears and crouched into a small ball.

Suddenly Jin was tackled down once more and Greg’s wiry body was pinning him down. “Jinjin run to your room!” he ordered as he landed a punch on Jin.

The life left his body as he heard little foots steps run up the stairs and slam a door shut.

Greg got a few good punches in before Jin came to his senses. With one hit, Greg was down. Jin jumped up from the floor and ran to the stairs. He took three steps at a time until he reached the top

The only door closed was the bathroom and he ran to it as fast as he could. The door was locked of course, but just fidgeting with the doorknob, Jinjin began to cry from the other side.

“Jinjin, open the door!”

“No! “his son screamed.

“Jinsoo… please open the door.” He said in a softer tone. He could feel his heart tearing as he heard Jinjin continue to cry. He felt a lump in his throat as he forced out the words “Jinsoo please, please, please open the door.”

Still there was no response other than crying.

“Don’t fucking talk to him!” Mina’s shrill voice screamed.

Jin turned to his right. Mina stood at the end of the stairs. Her face was bloody, her clothes a mess. In her hand she held a frying pan that she kept aimed at him. “Fucking leave!”

Greg soon appeared behind Mina, armed with a kitchen knife.

“Greg called the cops, so leave now before I tell them exactly what happened when they get here!”

“…Jinjin …” he tried one more time.

“I said leave!” Mina screamed loading the pan behind her head.

“…Fine…” Jin sniffled.

Eventually i will post the next part. There aren’t too many posts so after the official parts, I am going to post the outline i have and the few pictures of the edit.

If you have any feedback or questions about the series. feel free to send me an ask or a message.

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hayleymarshalldaily · 7 years ago

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Gigi / other admins what are your predictions for TO season five, like honest predicitions not unrealistic ones? also why do you carry on the blog when you say you no longer like the show?

My (Gigi) honest opinions are here:

First and foremost I predict this is the last. I don’t think they’ll have another season, and I think the writers will be aware they’re writing their last.

Unnecessary teen drama fuelled by daddy issues with Hope because her father never picked up the phone despite breaking the rules and visiting Elijah (lord don’t get me started) and first love boyfriend drama with Roman. First two/three episodes will jump around with different locations including the school but i think by episode four they’ll all be home in new orleans (I’m predicting now Roman will die, probably similarly to Jackson in that he died because he was too close to a member of the family.)

I suspect they’ll have Hayley either go with “I never stopped loving you Elijah” or ‘learn’ to love the new Elijah, or just be plain over the battery, I’m a bit 50/50 on how quickly they’ll get his memories back. I have a feeling Elijah will have a new love interest who will fail to hold his attention once Hayley is back in his life or he gets his memories back, I suspect Hayley may also have a new LI who will have 30 seconds screentime total and will also be ditched in favour of H/E. We’ll probably learn little about what Hayley’s been doing in the past decade or so, she prolly wont have a job or have picked up a new hobby and they’ll once again make out like every waking moment was spent trying to get the mikaelsons together again and she just didn’t have timeeee for herself (or they’ll make out like she aint even bothered because that wouldn’t surprise me either with the way nobody including hayley fought to keep them all together at the end of last season)

I suspect we’ll have minimal Rebekah as per season 2/3 due to the fact Claire’s new series got picked up to order, I think we might have Kol/Davina drop in together every now and then, depending on when Danielle wants to film. (Though even if she was completely free I dont think they’d ever bring them both to mains)

I’m monumentally disappointed with the lack of flashbacks this season, I really am, but with the cut down time I suspect there’ll be the same amount in s5, then again if Klaus really does return back to how he used to be due to losing Hope (literally and figuratively), maybe we’ll get some more so they can draw comparison. Josh will probably be the same as he was this season as well, they’ll make a reminder that he has a boyfriend or something and then never show the guy again, then he’ll be used randomly as/when to fit plans. We’ll prolly have a couple of shots of Cami’s grave again so I suspect that’ll remain the same.

I predict that Rebel will have broken up by the first episode and Marcel will be back in New Orleans. (small chance they’ll break up in the first episode after realising that it just isn’t working out and they’ll make a show of Rebekah staying wherever they are at that moment and Marcel going home. I suspect Rebekah/Marcel will have been in a very tumultuous on/off again for the past 7/8 years) Rebekah will drop in when the drama starts and they need her for something, her and Marcel will gaze longingly and may have gotten it on again by the end of the season.

I suspect that Freya/Keelin will be ridiculously happy and soppy though Freya will feel guilty over how long her family have been separated. Keelin will comfort her and that will lead to more soppy stuff. The writers have made it v clear they’re all in for this relationship to be happy and not end so there’s really not that much to ‘predict’ with this one.

Hope will probably have Bonnie/Davina level powers that she’s still not got amazing amounts of control over due to the sheer level of power she has. Will probably lose control a lot.

Vincent... idk about Vincent, he’ll prolly have his own sideplot that’ll link into the main somehow. Same goes for Marcel, I dont really know where they’d go with him.

I think The Hollow plot will be solved by episode 2 and then the s5 villain will problem will take root in episode 3, like in this season just passed, where season 3′s problem was solved at the end of episode 2 and then the hollow came in and messed it up for them when they finally thought they were gonna be okay.

Klaus... I’m with everyone else they’ll probably have Klaus with an old edge to him because he’s feeling bitter that once again he’s had to give up his child in order for his family to be okay, and for all he has had growth in the past couple of years, this is klaus we’re talking about, it *will* get to him deep down that his family get to go off and basically be perfectly happy with their partners and elijah gets to unburden himself of them all but he gets jack shit and cant be with Hope once again. But then again we were told to expect Klaus with PTSD from the dungeon and he had a total of one scene where we saw the effects of that so whoooo knows if they’ll make it effect him.

Depending on what capacity they get Candice I suspect they’ll have Caroline be the light in his life again or whatever when he can finally go near Hope again and he don’t know how to act they’ll have Caroline act like she knows her better than anyone else since she’s been her teacher (yeah the vampire teaching the witch, okay, whatever, moving on) and will help Klaus with Hope.

Ric will probably make a cameo in either the first episode or an episode later down the season.

There’ll probably be a K/D, H/E, R/M & K/C endgame. But i wouldn’t be surprised if they had it so R/M weren’t actually endgame and have them accept that they’re always gonna love each other but it’s never gonna work out.

I’ve heard talks of a Hope spinoff, and maybe there is an actual plan in JP’s head for this or maybe there isn’t, But I guarantee you that if they do a backdoor pilot (prolly where Alaric will actually enter) then it’ll flop. Theres no longer a market for that kinda show. Not a TVD meets Harry Potter meets Buffy which is how I expect they’ll try play it off. I think Hope was aged up because they had no idea what to do with a seven year old tbh, and this is the CW, so there *must* be some sort of romance with a central character. Hence Roman. I suspect Hope will be bratty and have an attitude and wont be the shy completely selfless kid we met in s4, and they’ll probably either try saying it’s her genetics or because Klaus wasn’t around enough.

(my unrealistic hopes though are hayley having an actual job and maybe going back to the pack since it was confirmed she was still living in new orleans and being an alpha and liaising with Vincent to be the head of the wolf faction again, having more flashbacks, minimal daddy issue drama with hope, more haycel/hopecel, little interference from TVD including MF, and not stringing out the elijah drama, if you’re gonna give him back his memories just doooo it don’t make it last all season, also freya getting a job might be cool, and learning vincents actual job when he’s not casting spells... you know... just saying)

I still run this blog because I’ve invested a fuckton of time into it, this blog is like my baby tbh, and I still love Hayley as a character even though I’m not okay with the show rn or tbh a lot of the way Hayley is written, she’s still a character that I very much so cannot let go of just yet. Also I found out that Carina will be a producer this year which I let fill me with a tiny bit of Hope because whilst she may not have ultimate power on the actual plot like Julie does, she’s very much so always been very pro Hayley and has always written incredible scenes for her, and has also written some very decent K/H/ scenes (whether or not she or anyone else ships them romantically, some of the best K/H scenes where they talk about Hope have been written by her)

Royal I’m assuming doesn’t care enough to give a prediction for s5 because she’s over the show, I know from speaking to her though that she’s still part of the blog because she enjoys the company (ayyyy) and has also been here from the very start and has invested a lot into it. Royal’s done a lot for the blog BTS.

And this is Sarah’s response:

My predictions for the show are pretty bleak (for me). I don't like this time jump. At all. Literally, there is not a single thing I like about it. I think they built the show on Klaus' redemption being through being a father to Hope, and yet he's spent literally less than two years actually raising her. So, what's the point of him being a father if he's not actually being a father? You providing biological material and/or money and possessions does not make you a father. He got what - two months with her where she could actually form memories and half the time he was fighting a big bad. Yes, his sacrifice was noble...I guess.

So, we're gonna get Hope with daddy issues. Which is very valid for her to have because she can't actually spend quality time with her father. And she apparently doesn't get to be raised by her mother. But that's all good because saint Caroline has a school she can attend and that's super more important than her being raised by her mother. Obviously, there's no witches in NOLA who could teach her. No witch children she could make friends with (or werewolf children for that matter). Nope. None. Not a single one. Certainly none with the last name Mikaelson. Noooooope. Can't think of a single witch who could teach her.

Also, add in the fact that the sides that were released (which I doubt will make it onto the show) have Hope completely isolated and has no friends because everyone is scared of her. But totally worth not being raised for extended amounts of time by either of her parents for her to not have friends...she gets a boyfriend though!!!!!!! And that's all that matters, right?

Basically, I think they aged up Hope because now they can push the magic school spin-off with Hope as the lead once the Originals ends. They're baiting other fans in with talk of Caroline and KC and whether they actually go through and produce either - who knows.

I think eventually they'll get back to NOLA. Hope will leave the school (since apparently she has no friends there in the first place). Her boyfriend will follow and be creepy like all the male vampires on this show. But she'll ignore it because he's dreamy and dangerous and blah blah blah. The show will continue reusing plot lines and nothing will actually ever happen or be accomplished. Somehow the Mikaelsons will put the Hollow down for good and we'll see Klaus again not knowing how to be a father/trying to make up for lost time because that's all the writers apparently know how to write. Maybe we'll get big bad Klaus again, and when he's finally reunited with Hope, he'll start his redemption arc again. Wash, rinse, repeat.

#ask #anonymous #mod post #gigi #sarah #if y'all want to discuss any of our answers feel free to come to our personal asks about this #especially if it's concerning predictions for anything other than hayley lmao #thanks guys #Anonymous

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ecotone99 · 5 years ago

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[HR] If I follow the rules I wont die

Sara you know that I love you. Since the college days and even now. But when you lay dead before me half decayed I feel my life essence being sucked out. I did not mean to kill her. "

"She's our daughter."

"I did not kill her ..no I did not...." Rohan dropped on the floor.

Though it was in 1990 when he murdered his girlfriend Sara and her daughter Daneil,he could still see the blood on the floor. He could feel the stench that filled his room.

Everyone in southern Indian know about the summer in Chennai. The sun burns so hot in the afternoon that no living being will ever come out in open. But in the evening everything changes. The sky will turn red, seagulls chirping, the cold breeze from the beach and a person in a right spot will forget all his worries and praise the ultimate being for keeping him alive.

And that is when young Rohan saw her for the first time. Though Rohan was an introvert and also was quite new to the town , he knew the city well. She was with her friends but she wasn't chatting with them or gave any attention to them . She was more focused on petting a stray dog. Rohan loved dogs and he had lost his lab the previous year and this scene made Rohan notice her.

Sara was a pretty girl, black straight but not so long, black eyes, a typical pretty south Indian. That day something sparked

Rohan was in Chennai to complete his bachelors in Engineering. He belonged to a decent middle class family and was able to afford a pretty good college to study at. He didn't miss his family that much. He cried a bit when he left his house in Trichurapalli but that was it. He didn't have many friends or any good memories there. College was his escape pod.

In college he got friends, both the good ones and the bad ones. But he was happy there. And one day he saw her there , in the college canteen with that same company but she seemed talkative. Being the shy one he didn't have guts to call her for a coffee.

Turned out one day that she was one of his friend's twin sister. Then they became friends. He really liked his new friend . But soon he came to know about her life. Her boyfriend, her secrets he came to know about most of them. Moreover that's what best friends do right, share secrets with each other. That day he realized that something was wrong with him . So he tried to stay away from her. He knew he loved her but was too afraid to accept it. And one day he told her.

She said "no". Not an answer that he did not expect. Moreover who was he , just another insignificant brown guy in her life - he thought himself. He was depressed for few months and finally moved on though it costed him a part of older self the essence of childishness that his parents loved the most about him.

Something changed in the pre final year.She was still a friend of his even after his proposal and she had handled that issue maturely. She got a new boyfriend and Rohan was normal. Until the night when she kissed him in her house. They were tired after the late night party and Rohan decided to stay in his friend , also Sara's twin brother Jonas's house. Fear stuck Rohan. Not because of something dangerous but the thought falling in love.

The next day everything was fine and she was with her boy friend the whole day and Rohan blamed the alcohol for that night. But why did he not resist?

People are mysterious. And is there anything more mysterious? What about love? What are we if we lose the ability to love? What will you see the next time you stare into your loved ones eyes? An abyss.

4 years later

June 28 1990

14:30 hrs

Somewhere in Chennai

"Ding""Dong"

Sara opened the door and the sight of Rohan chilled her spine. "We agree...agreed not to meet again" Sara told with a trembling voice.

"I'm leaving to Australia this July. Wanted to see you for one last time."

"My husband has gone out to work "

"Let me see her "

" No Rohan dont start this ag..gg.gain" Sara started stuttering making the dark shade under her eyes because of normal household duties more visible.

"I want to see my daughter for one last time"

" Rohan she is my daughter "

"She is our daughter and we both know it"

" Rohan stop this please" she started crying and dropped on the floor

"Just once then I'm gone forever"

A little kid came to the door running

"Momma why are you crying momma" she said in her innocent voice putting her finger right into her mouth just after saying that

"Momma cries when she is happy sweet." She told her 4 years old daughter wiping off her tears and lifted her

" Uncle over here is Momma's old friend and he brought me a very good news " she added

The kid stared at Rohan for few moments and she said

"Unkk....." unable to pronounce properly she started waving her hands in the air as to ask him why he was there

"She got your hair and smile. How come she is not like me?"

"The eyes"

He started to cry as he saw the same brown eyes that he sees everyday in the mirror on her .

" crying.. unckk" she said looking puzzled and turned back to her mom

" uncle is sad that he has to leave now" Sara said

"Go play with your toys Daniel" she added with a bit rough tone

Daniel went inside

"Is he treating you good" Rohan asked

"I'm happy Rohan. My life is perfect" she replied with tears but with a bold voice

" Happy ending then"

Sara waited till he turned back and got out of her vision.

Two months later

10 September 1990

20:14 hrs

The rain was so heavy that no could differentiate day or night by looking outside. It was so dark that the hell itself was asleep. The darkness even the predators feared of was surrounding the whole city . With the power cut the lightning and thunder was more noticeable. Very loud bright and frequent that it will make any man feel inferior . And Sara was in her living room.

"Danniellllll....." she tried to shout but she couldn't. Her whole body was shivering and each thunder just made it worse.

" Dannielll...where.rr.r are you?" In a helpless manner

Her heart was pounding fast..dub dub dub dub like million beats per second.

She already searched outside and Danniel wasn't there .

Her hair was wet and she was soaked. Her husband was on a business trip to Singapore and she was all on her own.

"Danniel.....come to momma" she started walking slower as she saw another foot prints on the floor as the lightning striked.

When the next lighting striked she made sure she remembered the path the footprints led. It led to her bed room. Danniel's toys were scattered on the floor. When she neared the bed room door she could her her child crying with fear. She blasted inside to find Rohan sitting on the bed with Danniel on his hands.

"Shhhhh Shhh Papa is here .. and he wont leave you hereafter..shhh shhh"

" Rohan what is this" she asked as calmly as possible one hand reaching for her girl and the other one trembling with a kitchen knife behind her back.

" I couldn't leave her Sara I tried please dont take her away from me"

"I won't Rohan"she replied calmly as she brought the kid to her side.

" you are happy. Everyone in this goddamn world is happy and why does all the bad thing only happen to me"

" we will talk about this later tomorrow " Sara replied. She tried the landline hours back. It wasn't working.

"She is the only good thing ever happened to me " he dropped on his knees crying.

Isn't that the difficult things of all " moving on". People easily say that. "Move on , it will heal " or does it really. Is that what moving on is about?Giving your soul some time to heal itself!!"....

It never heals ..it is an open wound since day one. It doesn't heal. It wont ever. What are scars when compared with real pain? People say hard things will leave a scar so that we will remember it forever. We move on by learning to live with the wounds. We try to choke the bleeding by giving a part of ourselves in doing so.

And we continue our usual life but stronger than yesterday.

But some are weak .

Rohan reached out to grab danniel's arm but Sara pushed her back.

"Mmmmaaaa" she heard a scream

She found her daughter lying on the floor and there was pool of blood. Before she could react the poor thing had already died. Sara didn't know what to do..she knelt before her dead child feeling as soulless as the body in front of her. Without think she turned back to kill that devil . But when she turned he was already there. Right beside her. Feeling soulless .He took the knife from her hand and slit her throat wide open.

"If I don't go out off this building I will die" Rohan said

" I have to go"

"Dont talk with anyone"

"Knives are dangerous"

"I dont wanna die"

The room was scribbled with pencils and some words were written with his own blood.Some words were identifiable and those read "love" "mistake" "pain".

"Patient seems to show no improvement over the increment of dosage"

"I'm gonna die if I dont follow the rules"

"Personal blog #542 patient no.720 one of the rarest cases. Still haven't recovered from the trauma he had experienced.Subject is charged guilty for two homicides which includes a girl of 5 . DNA test proved that the daughter was his own. Monsters do exist. The date is 28 June 1999 and this is Dr. June signing off"

"I'm gonna die if I dont follow the rules"

June held his waving hands and rubbed it a bit easing him.

"You are already dead"

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HEBREWS 1-3 The next few weeks I’ll be teaching from an old commentary I wrote a few years back [2007-8]- The notes at the bottom of the chapters- and post- are new [as well as the videos].

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NEW NOTE- In the study of the bible- there are debates about who wrote the letters of the New Testament.

In the field of higher criticism- it gets a bit silly at times.

I just finished an on line course from a respected scholar out of Yale university.

He taught from the higher criticism perspective- I enjoyed the course- though I did not agree with lots of his conclusions.

At one point he questioned whether Paul wrote the middle chapter of one of the letters attributed to Paul.

Yet he did believe the first- and last chapters were by Paul.

For the most part- we believe that the letters in the bible- that say in them ‘written by Paul’ are from Paul [or Peter, James, Etc.].

But- Hebrews leaves the authors name out- so some debate who wrote it.

Tertullian- an early church father [2/3rd century] attributed it to Barnabus- Paul’s companion that we read about in the book of Acts-

For about 1500 years- till the time of the Reformation- most Christian scholars attributed it to Paul.

Hebrews is written in a high form of Greek [which is another way we determine who wrote the letters- tough this is not always accurate.

Many say John the apostle did not write Revelation- because the form of Greek used is much lower than the other writings of John- yet- there is internal witness that John [the apostle] wrote it.

In John’s writings [gospel- 1st, 2nd and 3rd John] he speaks about Jesus as the Word [Logos] and this theme is seen in Revelation too].

So- while we don’t know for sure- I personally stick with the authorship of Paul the apostle.

INTRODUCTION:

I have been wanting to overview this book for a long time. I believe there are a lot of misconceptions from Hebrews. Often time’s modern translations take older books of the Bible and want to make them relevant for our day. This can be both good and bad.

I like the message Bible, but for in depth study it doesn’t really work. There are certain things that must be interpreted in context of the time and place when the book was written. Hebrews is one of the most important New Testament books to ‘read in context’. I wont go over every verse in this short commentary, I will hit the high points of various chapters and try to show you what I mean by ‘reading it in context’.

I believe it is possible that this book was Paul’s ‘open letter’ to the first century Jewish community, this is quite possibly why it goes unsigned. The ‘Judaizers’ had so polluted the minds of their fellow Jews against Paul ‘he speaks against Moses and our law’ type thing, that if Paul signed this letter, there would be little chance that the intended audience would read it!

If you read a book on auto mechanics, and tried to make it relevant for the human body, it wouldn’t work. For instance if you spoke on the engine of a car, and then tried to ‘translate’ that and equate it with the human heart, you would have problems. But if you left it in context and then applied the concept of maintenance and the need for clean fuel lines, and then applied it to the human need for clean arteries, well then that would be OK.

So I believe when we read Hebrews, and don’t try to make it ‘fit’ Gentile believers, then it works. You still get great principles from the ‘manual’, but you understand that it is not speaking directly to the Gentile church. God bless you guys, I hope you get something from it. John.

CHAPTER 1:

NEW NOTES AT END OF CHAPTER-

LOGOS.

SEATED.

‘God, who at sundry times and in diverse manners spake in time past unto the fathers by the Prophets, hath in these last days spoken unto us by his Son, whom he hath appointed heir of all things, by whom also he made the worlds. Many years ago when I was going to a fundamental Baptist Church, they would interpret this passage in a ‘cessationist’ way. They would say because God says in the past he spoke by prophets, but now by his Son. That this means he doesn’t speak thru Prophets any more. The Prophets here are Old Testament voices. In Ephesians it says after Jesus ascended up on high he gave gifts unto men, some Apostles, some Prophets, etc. The fact that Jesus made Prophets after the ascension teaches us that there were to be a whole new class of New Testament Prophets that were different from the old. I find it strange to believe that Jesus would create a whole new class of gifts, and then take them away as soon as the Bible is complete. Why would Paul give instruction in the New Testament on how Prophets would operate [Corinthians] and then to say ‘as soon as this letter is canonized with the others, all this instruction will be useless’ it just doesn’t seem right.

The reason Paul is saying in the past God used Prophets, but today his Son. Paul is showing that the Jewish Old testament was a real communication from God to man. But in this dispensation of Grace, God is speaking the realities that the Prophets were looking to. Paul is saying ‘thank God for the Old Jewish books and law, they point to something, his name is Jesus’! The Prophets [Old Testament] served a purpose; they brought us from the shadows to the present time [1st century] now lets move on into the reality. Now you must see and hear the Son in these last days. ‘Who being the brightness of his glory and the express image of his person…when he by himself purged our sins SAT DOWN on the right hand of the majesty on high’ here we are at the beginning stages of themes that we will see later in the letter. The significance of Jesus ‘sitting down’ will be contrasted with the Old testament priests ‘standing up’. Paul [for the record I think Paul wrote this letter, from here on I will probably just refer to the writer as Paul] will teach that the ‘standing up’ of the Levitical Priests represented an ‘incomplete priesthood’ the reason Jesus sat down was because there would be no more sacrifice, and no more priesthood made up of many priests who would die year after year. This doesn’t mean there would be no more New Testament priests as believers, but that there would be no more Old Testament system. Paul will find spiritual truths like this all thru out the Old Testament.

Some theologians feel that Paul is a little too loose with these free comparisons that he seems to ‘pull out of the hat’, for the believer who holds to the canon of scripture, it is the Word of God. ‘Being made so much better than the angels…but unto the Son he saith “thy throne O God is forever and ever, a scepter of righteousness is the scepter of thy Kingdom”. Here Paul introduces another theme that will be seen thru out this letter. The superiority of Jesus over angels. Why is this important? Most believers know that Jesus is greater than angels, don’t they? Here we see why context is important to understand this letter. In Jewish tradition it is believed that the law was given to Moses by God thru the mediation of angels. Some say ‘well, we don’t use Jewish tradition, we use scripture’. First, Paul used anything he could to win the argument. Second, if we believe Hebrews is an inspired book, then when we read later on that the law given thru angels received a recompense if broken, then right here you have scripture [Hebrews] testifying that God did use angels to ‘transmit’ the law to some degree. Now, why is it important for gentiles to see this? Well it really isn’t! But it is vital for a first century Jew to see it. If Paul can show that Jesus is greater than the angels, then he is beginning to make the argument that the New Covenant is greater than the Old.

Here is the context. Moses law is highly revered in the first century Jewish community, so here Paul says ‘how much better is the law/word given to us from Gods Son’. Since Jesus is much better than the angels, therefore pay closer attention to the words spoken thru Gods Son, he is greater than the angels! ‘But to which of the angels said he “sit at my right hand until I make thy enemies thy footstool” we end chapter one with the theme of Jesus being better than the angels, yet in chapter 2 something funny happens, Paul will make the argument of Jesus being “a little lower than the angels” lets see what this means.

NEW NOTES- 4-2015

LOGOS.

We see God having created all things thru Christ ‘the express image of his person- by whom also he made the worlds’.

Jesus is called the WORD of God in scripture- the Greek word- for ‘word’ is Logos.

We read in the bible that God made all things- but also that Christ made all things-

Is this a contradiction?

No-

For the first 3-4 centuries of Christianity- as you study the early church councils-

The early church struggled over how to view the relationships between God and Jesus

These debates raged- and at times each side viewed the other as Heretics.

I think it was a mistake to be so quick to judge those as heretics- who were having difficulty in expressing in finite words- the great mystery of God and Christ.

In Genesis we read that God spoke all things into existence- so- here we see God’s Word- Logos [Christ] as being the instrumental cause of creation.

In John chapter one we read that Jesus was the Word- in the beginning- who was with God- and was God.

I’ll try and simplify it [not an easy task to say the least].

God- who is Spirit- spoke- and this expression of God- his Word- is also referred to as Christ-

Christ/Jesus is the Word of God made flesh- and it is thru his humanity [incarnation] that we do indeed see God in ‘the flesh’-

Yes- by Him- all things were made.

SEATED.

We see a theme in chapter 1- that will run thru the whole letter-

HE SAT DOWN- In Hebrews we are seeing the superiority of the New Covenant over the old- and there will be many comparisons to show how the Old Covenant- priests- sacrifices- the law itself- was less than what we get in the New Covenant-

And the reality that Jesus sat down at the right hand of God- shows us that he was the last- and final High Priest- and the whole system of Priests under the law are now done.

We will read that the Old Testament priests stood [signifying that there work was ongoing- meaning they would have to keep offering sacrifices that could never put away sin].

But Jesus- after he offered himself- sat down.

All thru this letter we will see these comparisons-

LOTS OF QUOTES- We also see a lot of quotes from the Psalms in this letter- just like we saw in the Romans study.

There is a debate over whether or not Paul wrote the letter- I think he did.

One of the reasons is the author of Hebrews does the same thing as Paul in the other letters- lots of cross references from the Old Testament books- and it just seems to me to have the same flavor as Paul’s other letters.

Psalms 2, 104, 45, etc.

CHAPTER 2:

NEW NOTES AT BOTTOM

.HOW SHOULD WE INTERPRET SCRIPTURE?

.PSLAMS, ISAIAH ‘REVEALED’ THRU CHRIST

‘Therefore we ought to give the more earnest heed to the things which we have heard, lest at anytime we should let them slip. For if the word spoken by angels was steadfast, and every transgression received a just recompense of reward, how shall we escape if we neglect so great salvation that was first spoken by the Lord and was confirmed to us by them that heard him’. Now, we see the contrast. If the word spoken ‘by angels’ [law] was so strict in judgment, then how much more will God hold responsible those who reject the word spoken by the Son [gospel], being he is so much better than the angels? This is the theme taught in chapter one. That’s why chapter 2 starts with ‘therefore’ he is saying because of all this truth of the superiority of Jesus to angels, don’t reject the word of the Son! Also now we begin to see context. The ‘not neglecting so great salvation’ is really speaking to Israel [Hebrews]. It is not telling believers not to neglect salvation or they will be lost, it is telling first century Israel if you reject/neglect this true gospel of Jesus as Messiah, then YOU will be lost.

Many of the verses thru out this study will begin to make a lot of sense when taken in context. We will do much more of this in the coming chapters. ‘Thou madest him a little lower than the angels, thou crownest him with glory’ ‘thou hast put all things under his feet’ ‘we see Jesus who was made a little lower than the angels for the suffering of death, crowned with glory and honor, that he by the grace of God should taste death for every man’. Now we see the doctrine of Jesus being made lower than the angels. Does this contradict chapter one? No! He was first made ‘lower’ [became a man and humbled himself more than any other man-Philippians] and for this reason God gave him the highest position at his right hand. He was made lower so he could ‘taste death for every man’ here Paul gets right into the central message of the gospel, that he will spend the rest of this letter explaining. He realizes that 1st century Israel must transition into the death and resurrection of Jesus. He doesn’t take the common evangelical approach to Israel, which seems to defend and extol her on a regular basis. Paul sees her ‘lost ness’ and makes every effort to bring her into the gospel. Jesus died for EVERY man, Israel, so you too must transition into this one new man that he desires to create.

‘For as much than as the children are partakers of flesh and blood, he also likewise took part of the same, that thru death he might DESTROY him who had the power of death, that is the devil: and deliver them who thru fear of death were all their lifetime subject to bondage’ did you know that Jesus already destroyed the devil? The greatest act of deliverance and redemption that will ever take place, already took place! Evangelicals can be notorious for looking to the 2nd coming as an ‘escape hatch’. Sometimes the 2nd coming is looked to as the event that ‘destroys the devil’ sorry, but he has already been destroyed. Now there definitely will be a future aspect to his final judgment, but its inevitability is sealed by the fact of the death and resurrection of the Son of God!

These verses also say that Jesus delivered us from him who had the power of death, that is the devil. Jesus taught in the gospels that God had the power to take life or spare it. Fear God. Then how can the devil have ‘the power of death’. The devil has used death as a ‘sword of Damocles’ over the heads of people. He works thru intimidation. How many people live their whole lives in fear of getting cancer, or some other disease? They often go to extreme lengths to do all they can to avoid death. This type of self survival can be obsessive. People will run back and forth on hopes of escaping some sickness. The devil often accuses people ‘you have this sickness’ or ‘you might get it’. He had ‘power’ thru deception. He knew man did sin, and one of the prices for sin was death. So the enemy constantly accuses the saints. And one of his main weapons is ‘you will die because of what you did’. Jesus dealt with this ultimate fear thru tasting death himself and coming thru the other side. This is why Peter was so eager to go thru death after he saw Jesus do it. Peter was such a chicken before, that he would deny he even knew Jesus, to a girl, just to save his skin. After the resurrection, it was all over! They were convinced that death had no more power over them. They would die someday, but it wasn’t the final curtain.

‘Wherefore in all things it behoved him to be made like unto his brethren, that he might be a merciful and faithful high priest in things pertaining to God, to make reconciliation for the sins of the people, for in that he himself hath suffered being tempted, he is able to help them that are tempted’ One of the other reasons why Jesus took on flesh was so he could empathize with man. Paul wrote the Corinthians and told them that the things that they suffered were for a purpose. The purpose was that after they went thru stuff, God would show them comfort. They then would be able to comfort others with the same comfort that God showed them. Later in Hebrews we also read that every priest taken from men had infirmity. Therefore he could identify with man.

We will also read that Jesus was in all points tempted like us. So here we see that Jesus incarnation allowed him to identify with man and to be faithful to have compassion and understanding with mans weakness. Often times in Christianity you will have well meaning ministers give up on the addict. A lot of times you hear ‘well, if they were serious about God they would do right’ or ‘if they only made a quality decision at the altar’ and things of this nature. Often times those who have not been thru addiction cannot really understand the life of a person who will steal from his own family, go to prison, lose everything he has ever earned. And then get out after 10 years and do it all again! Jesus had compassion because he walked in our shoes. He knew the terrible draw of sin and temptation, and he asks us to come to him for help because he knows what the struggles are like.

NEW NOTES-

Psalms 8, 22. Isaiah 8- Notice how the author freely quotes from Psalms and Isaiah- just like we saw in the book of Romans-

Notice how the writer applies the quotes to Jesus himself ‘I will sing praises to you in the midst of the congregation’ ‘made a little lower than the angels’ etc.

I just finished another course- by a Yale university scholar-

He taught from the ‘historical criticism’ view of scripture.

This type of reading of the bible arose out of the German universities in the late19th- early 20th centuries.

It had some good aspects to it- but in many ways it was an unfair criticism [taking apart] of the biblical authors.

I mention that to say when we see the New Testament writers interpreting these Old Testament scriptures in this way- Those of us who believe the bible to be the inspired Word of God.

Then we don’t see it as a ‘miss-reading’. For instance- critics say that some of these verses are not speaking of Christ- now- that may be true in the general sense- when the Jews first read these verses from the Old Testament.

But we- Christians- see it as God revealing the true fulfillment of these prophecies- in Psalms and Isaiah.

So- the critics will note that these verses applied in a general way- and not to Christ.

But the believer sees it as God using the writers of the New Testament- under inspiration- as revealing to us how the Old Testament is now being fully revealed thru Christ.

Psalm 8:4 What is man, that thou art mindful of him? and the son of man, that thou visitest him?

Psalm 8:5 For thou hast made him a little lower than the angels, and hast crowned him with glory and honour.

Psalm 8:6 Thou madest him to have dominion over the works of thy hands; thou hast put all things under his feet:

Psalm 22:22 I will declare thy name unto my brethren: in the midst of the congregation will I praise thee.

Isaiah 8:18 Behold, I and the children whom the LORD hath given me are for signs and for wonders in Israel from the LORD of hosts, which dwelleth in mount Zion.

CHAPTER 3:

END NOTES-

PSLAMS 95.

TRUE SABBATH REST.

‘Wherefore HOLY BRETHREN, partakers of the heavenly calling’ I want to submit to you that these terms found thru out Hebrews are really speaking of the privileged position of the 1st century Jew before his final rejection of Messiah as a nation. Most times we read these verses and debate whether it is speaking of someone who is ‘saved’ or not. Later we will see this in chapter 6 ‘those who were once enlightened and partakers of the Holy Ghost’ all these terms can apply to Israel as Gods peculiar people and chosen nation. I feel Paul is still addressing them this way because they are still in a transition stage in the 1st century. There is still hope that they will receive Messiah as a nation. All these terms are referring to Israel as being Gods special people who came for a special purpose. Ultimately they will not live up to this calling [yet!] because they will reject Jesus as a nation, though there will be a remnant of Jews who will believe. So as we read thru out Hebrews we will look at all these privileged expressions as speaking of Israel as Gods special nation.

This will clear up the arguments that many believers have over portions of this letter. ‘Consider the Apostle and High Priest of our profession, Christ Jesus…and Moses was faithful in all his house as a servant, for a testimony of those things that would come later…but Christ as a Son over his own house WHO’S HOUSE ARE WE if we hold fast the confidence and rejoicing of hope firm unto the end’ a main theme from Paul is to compare Moses and Jesus. Paul will take lots of Old testament verses and quote them in this letter. I believe more than any other New Testament letter. He quotes them freely, not even giving the chapter and verse, he says ‘somewhere it is said’ and then goes right into it. Sort of like what I do on my blog! The point is Paul is seeing so many shadows of the Old Testament fulfilled thru Christ that his mind is exploding in revelation. It is almost like he can’t stop proving this point. Jesus is seen all thru out the Old Testament and Paul is obsessed with showing this to the first century Jew, his own cultural family. He says in Romans that he would be cursed himself if he knew it would open the eyes of his nation. Paul also reveals that Israel can become this house, if she ‘holds on to the end’. We will read stuff like this a lot in Hebrews. This causes some to read the letter as in if Paul were writing Christians.

Jesus taught in John 15 that the branches would be cut off that would not bring fruit. Paul also said that Israel, the natural branches, were cut off so we [gentiles] would be grafted in. These terms of ‘holding on, staying steadfast’ can be applied to Israel in the sense that Paul is pleading ‘you have a few thousand year history with God. God has sent you prophets and anointed your kings with his Spirit [by the way this is why in chapter 6 it will say those who were once enlightened by the Spirit and were made partakers of the Holy Ghost- no other nation on earth had the Spirit of God actively administrating their government like Israel- the argument isn’t whether it’s talking about people who were ‘truly saved’ or not!] you, Israel, have been walking with him for a long time, DON’T FALL AWAY NOW!’ So in context the ‘holding on’ can describe the transition stage. Don’t fall away after all these years of waiting for Messiah as a national hope and promise. You will see Paul use this argument in Acts when he says ‘you guys are accusing me of heresy, and I am just preaching the fulfillment of the promise that our fathers have been waiting for, for over thousands of years’.

‘Wherefore, as the Holy Ghost says, today if you will hear his voice, harden not your hearts, as in the provocation, the day of temptation in the wilderness, when your fathers tempted me and saw my works FORTY YEARS… so I sware in my wrath they shall not enter into my rest’ Now, a common theme is to teach that Christians cant get the promised land because they don’t have faith. It is taught that Israel in the wilderness are a type of believers and to get the promise you must believe. While all this can be true, this is not the context in Hebrews. Paul is trying to get Israel to BELIEVE in Christ for righteousness, as opposed to her trying to work for it [Romans 9-10].

Paul sees the story of Israel not entering into the Promised Land as an example of the danger of not entering into the new covenant by failing to believe in Jesus and be justified by faith. He will later do this in chapter 11, the great faith chapter. He will show Israel how all of her Patriarchs received A GOOD REPORT [justified] by faith. I will explain it when I get there. So keep in mind that Israel in the wilderness is a type of Israel in the first century, and Paul is trying to tell them ‘just like our fore fathers couldn’t get into the promised land because of UNBELIEF, so too you are in danger of stumbling over the righteousness of God which is by faith, not of works!’ I also find it interesting that Paul includes the 40 year period of judgment. It was around 40 years after the crucifixion of Jesus until the destruction of the temple in AD 70.

It was a prophetic sign, a sort of probationary period for Israel as a nation. It was like God said ‘40 years are now up, the temple is going to be destroyed just like my Son said, those who haven’t moved on and made the transition into the ‘new temple’ are now being judged’. Israel hasn’t had true temple worship since! ‘Wherefore the Holy Ghost saith, today if you will hear his voice harden not your hearts [as opposed to the voice of Moses which is the law] as in the provocation, the day of temptation in the wilderness: when your fathers tempted me, proved me and saw my works FORTY years…so I sware in my wrath they shall not enter into my rest, take heed brethren [fellow Jews] lest there be in any of you AN EVIL HEART OF UNBELIEF IN DEPARTING FROM THE LIVING GOD’ We are going to enter a theme that speaks of Israel not entering Gods true rest because of unbelief, not because of a lack of works [law].

The apostle will begin to use the story of Joshua entering into the Promised Land as a story of Jesus [which the Old Testament translation of Joshua means Jesus] and his offering true rest [grace] to 1st century Israel. The fact is the only ones who entered in were the ones who believed. The unbelievers [all the adults except for Joshua and Caleb] all died out over a 40 year period in the wilderness. Just like many of the first century Jews would reject Messiah for 40 years until the destruction of their temple. Jesus said we must become like little children to inherit Gods Kingdom. The children of the older generation entered into the Promised Land, the parents died. Why did they die Paul? Was it because they didn’t have the law or do ‘works’? NO! They died because of unbelief. Paul is stressing that the 1st century Jew is also in danger of ‘not entering into rest [grace] because of unbelief’. We often read these verses applying them to Christians, which is OK. But when you read them in context, then you see the real meaning. This will help later when we read others passages. We wont argue over Arminian or Calvinistic interpretations of stuff, we will see that neither one is right as it pertains to certain portions of this letter. ‘And to whom sware he that they should not enter into rest, but to them THAT BELIEVED NOT, SO WE SEE THAT THEY COULD NOT ENETR IN BECAUSE OF UNBELIEF’ Do you see the significance of this argument? Brilliant Paul is using all of these well known Old Testament stories to convince Israel that they must believe [justification by faith] in order to ‘inherit the land’ [the promise of eternal life]. This is the whole context of Hebrews. That’s why when modern preachers use all these verses to say you must believe to get material things, that they are way off the mark. It is true that faith does obtain things. And when we believe God for healing and finances and answers to prayer that it is vital to believe. But so many modern teachers have taught these promises as getting stuff, while in context you begin to see the true meaning.

PSLAMS 95-

Once again we the writer freely quoting- and ‘interpreting’ this passage from Psalms- and showing that the sin that prevented Israel form obtaining rest- was UNBELIEF.

Why is this so important?

If you remember the Romans teaching I did last- Paul stresses that the righteousness of God comes by faith- not of works ‘lest any man should boast’.

So- this letter to the Hebrews [Jewish people] is intended to show them the superiority of the New Covenant over the Old.

And the way you obtain the benefits of the New Covenant [redemption] is thru faith.

The passage from Psalms recounts the history of the Jewish people- and those who did not ‘get in’ [Promised Land] were those who did not have faith.

We also read how Paul teaches that the Promised Land spoken of was still a future event/place-

Paul uses Psalms again and says ‘If Joshua gave them the rest [Canaan- book of Joshua] then God would not have spoken of another day’.

Here Paul says the true day ‘of rest’ also referred to as the true Sabbath day [age of grace- not an actual day] is fulfilled in the coming of the Messiah- and just like God ‘rested the 7th day from all his works’- so we too can rest from our works [the law] and also enter into rest- thru the ‘new Joshua’ [Jesus].

Psalm 95:7 For he is our God; and we are the people of his pasture, and the sheep of his hand. To day if ye will hear his voice,

Psalm 95:8 Harden not your heart, as in the provocation, and as in the day of temptation in the wilderness:

Psalm 95:9 When your fathers tempted me, proved me, and saw my work.

Psalm 95:10 Forty years long was I grieved with this generation, and said, It is a people that do err in their heart, and they have not known my ways:

Psalm 95:11 Unto whom I sware in my wrath that they should not enter into my rest.

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The best savings account to open today

A good savings account allows you to effortlessly save for ANY financial goal:

Weddings

Engagement rings

Trips to Paris

Down payment on house

New car

Front row tickets to a Jay-Z and Beyonce concert

Whatever!

And when you combine it with automation, you create a powerful financial tool that allows you to save passively too.

BUT all accounts aren’t created equal: beware of the Big Banks. Extortionate fees and terrible customer service make them a bad deal for most people. Instead you should get an online savings account.

If you’ve ever had a Big Bank, you know what I’m talking about: Minimum fees, overdraft penalties, crappy interest rates, and (my least favorite) mailing you dumb promotional material every. Single. DAY.

There are plenty of great online accounts to choose from too — but after evaluating many options I’ve boiled it down to one: Capital One 360.

The BEST savings account: Capital One 360

Source: Consumerist

This is the account I recommended in my book and it’s still the account I use today, years later.

Why? A few things:

No fees, no minimums

1% APY

You can do everything online in an ultra-simple interface

No annoying upsells sent via postal mail = no paper cuts

Links to your checking account via electronic transfer

BEST PART: Sub-savings accounts (more on this later)

The account also comes with a lot of great online savings tools to help you keep track of your financial goals.

Overall, this makes Capital One 360 Savings the best deal for anyone who wants to take their personal finance goals to the next level.

How to open a Capital One 360 Savings account

Click here to get started with the Capital One 360 Savings. NOTE: It’s not an affiliate link. I’m not a rep for Capital One — just a happy customer.

Get ready to fill out a few forms with your personal information (name, address, DOB, etc.) as well as more private information (social security number). The process won’t take more than 30 minutes and when you’re done, you’ll be ready to get started saving.

BUT I have another savings account suggestion. It’s important to have multiple options.

Runner-up: Ally Bank Online Savings

Source: GoBankingRates

Ally is an online bank — and they’re a great choice for anyone looking for a solid savings account.

A few things to note:

1.45% APY

No fees, no minimums

Can create multiple accounts

Easy online interface

Interest compounded daily

Though Ally savings accounts don’t technically have sub-savings accounts, it does allow you to create multiple savings accounts that effectively do the same thing.

The “sub-savings” accounts of a brave IWT worker.

Click here to get started with an Ally savings account. It’ll be the same process as with the Capital One 360 savings account.

Once you do you’ll be able to open up multiple savings account on the same day. And having accounts where you can segment your savings goals is crucial to achieving them. That’s why I want to go into what exactly sub-savings accounts are and why they’re so important.

The importance of sub-savings accounts

I mentioned how psychologically important it is to have sub-savings accounts, rather than one lump “savings” area.

Check out this screenshot of my old sub-savings accounts:

You see why this matters?

If your friends call you up and say “Hey dude, let’s roll to Vegas this weekend,” you’re not going to be like, “Hang on guys … let me initiate a transfer from my ‘down payment’ sub-savings account, which should take 24-48 hours.”

You could … but you won’t.

This is a GOOD THING.

Using my automated personal finance system, I use monthly automatic transfers to funnel money into each of my sub-accounts. Now that these transfers are in place, I’m getting closer to each of my goals automatically, month after month, without having to remember to set money aside.

This is precisely how people get rich “passively.” You don’t see the money when it’s automatically withdrawn from your checking account and shunted to specific savings goals — you will never miss it. However, a few months later, you’ll be amazed at how fast you’re accomplishing your goals.

By the way, it’s possible to simulate sub-savings accounts with any savings account (for example, by manually creating your own “sub accounts” in Excel).

But I like Capital One 360 and Ally because they just do it for me. Why give yourself another financial chore to think about? Don’t take more than five minutes deciding. Just pick one and move on.

I cover the use of sub-savings accounts in more detail in my blog post “Sub-savings accounts: How to save for anything in 3 steps.” It’s an incredibly powerful way to make your savings more streamlined and purposeful.

Don’t chase rates — look for these 3 things instead

The two accounts I suggest above are great — BUT they’re just my recommendations. Do your research and look into what works for you.

Let me offer you another word of advice though: Don’t be a rate chaser.

A lot of people ask about the 4-5% interest rate that ING and other high-interest banks used to pay, which I quoted in my book. Unfortunately, those interest rates are variable, meaning they change with the economy. As a result, many online banks don’t offer the same rates they used to.

However, do NOT waste your time chasing rates. A 1% difference on a balance of $10,000 is $8.33/month. That’s a small win and hardly worth your time.

If you write me and say, “But Ramit, XYZ bank has 0.2364% higher interest rate. LOL! U R WRONG!” I am going to (1) mock you, (2) make you my “troll of the week” on Instagram so my followers can mock you too.

Instead, you should be looking at three things when searching for a good bank:

Trust. This is one big thing Big Banks (e.g., Bank of America, Wells Fargo, Chase) lack. I know because I had a Wells Fargo account (aka Wells “Let’s open millions of fake accounts” Fargo) for YEARS because their ATMs were in my area — but I’ve since learned better. You can’t trust banks that do skeezy things like double charging you for using other ATMs or nickel-and-diming you through minimums and fees. Their offers should be clear and easy to set up.

Convenience. Your bank needs to be convenient — otherwise you’re not going to be able to take full advantage of it. You need to be able to get money in and out and also transfer it easily. You can make sure that a bank is convenient by browsing around its website and making sure that they have a reliable customer support team.

Features. The best high interest savings account is going to be the one with other great features like prepaid envelopes for depositing money, sub-savings accounts, and online savings goals tools.

Find a bank with those three things and you’re set for life. Once you do, it’s time for you to automate your finances to optimize your savings potential.

Automate your finances and save for ANYTHING

I. Talk. About. This. A. LOT. But that’s only because it’s the best way to invest, save, and earn money. This system allows you to automatically send your money where it needs to go as soon as you receive your paycheck.

And it’s simple: Each month, your paycheck is automatically divvied up and sent exactly where it needs to go (pay bills, pay rent, invest, save, etc.) without you needing to touch it. This allows you to save for any goals passively, making it easier to save than ever.

To find out more on how to automate your finances, check out my 12-minute video explaining it here:

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If you want to cut down the time it takes to save for your goals even more, I have something for you:

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In it, I’ve included my best strategies to:

Create multiple income streams so you always have a consistent source of revenue.

Start your own business and escape the 9-to-5 for good.

Increase your income by thousands of dollars a year through side hustles like freelancing.

Download a FREE copy of the Ultimate Guide today by entering your name and email below — and get on your way to accomplishing your savings goals.

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